IronicallyME

DANZATION

2008-09-26T09:11:00.001-07:00

People are going to disappoint you, I get that, kind of expect that, but what if you wake up one day and realize that you're the disappointment?

withmuchloveandhesitation

FRESHIES CAMP

2008-09-01T07:46:00.000-07:00

HELLO BABIES.

Goodness, Saturday marked the end of the freshies camp. Damn it was helluva FUN. LOL. Except for the depressing fact that I brought home Ms Flu and Mr Fever, they conveniently stayed for like the entire weekend and left me completely wasted. Today's Monday, just when I was about to rejoice their departure, they left Little Sorethroat with me. Damn.

Hello freshies, I know some of you are reading this, I can feel you. LOL
I hoped you guys enjoyed the camp as much as I did. Bond night was INTENSE! If fate permits, perhaps we could really get to know each other better. For those who I unfortunately didn't get a chance to associate with, don't worry, there's always time. =)
And there is also the COMMITTEE. Unbelievable group of toddlers, pulling of such a huge event singlehandedly. They truly are the behind-the-scenes heroes, deserving of a standing ovation, I'm sure many of you would have grown through this experience, and seeing you dudes and dudettes working your asses off in planning and executing this project makes me proud. GOOD JOB BABIES.

Alright what's a post on the KING's blog without a tinge of love peppered with a spice of poetry?

"She's Sassy

She's Pretty

She's Lovely

She's Blithely

She's Bubbly

She's Meekly

She's Coyly

She's Dainty

And someone else's Lady"

When there's a little something of you in everything

GOODNIGHT BAYBEES.

VIVI

2008-08-10T10:24:00.001-07:00

Sorry for the long period of post deficit. It seems like I've been apologizing for not blogging in a while in almost every post. That explains why I only got 92 posts (including this) ever since I created this blog last year. LOL.
It always because I have nothing interesting to blog about, or simply too much that I can't blog about. So its kinda dilemmatic in a way. But often in the random sea of torrential thoughts and emotional upsurges, words piece together perfectly...

The clouds dab away the pain
from the sun's face
Like soaking up the rain
leaving a rainbow's trace

The mind can't feel its heart,

And the heart is out of its mind.

DADDY AND MUMMY

2008-07-29T07:52:00.000-07:00

Cut me open
It'll be so much easier that way
For you to know

iloveyou.so?

I pray for someone to be there
when all hell break loose.

I love my dad, Meng

my second brother, Sherman

my youngest brother Ryan

my mum, Mary

my grandma, Ma Ma

Vincent and Seng

2008-07-01T10:31:00.000-07:00

I can’t stand to fly

I’m not that naive

I’m just out to find

The better part of me

Sometimes I wished I had the capability of understanding every single soul, perhaps things would work out so much better this way, and everything would be a little less complicated. Better still, I could hold the weight of the world on my shoulders, so that it'll be a little lighter for many. It saddeneds me to know so much and only able to do so little. To the extent in which I rather not know. I know its impossible for me to serve all, but to the best of me, I love all. Give me the truth and keep me alive. Such shallow and unrealistic thoughts. I disgust myself at times.

On a lighter note, I love AnnRA. I really do. =)

To Love

Or to be Loved

I've never got to the last part,

to be Loved by the one I Love.

always a tad too late,

or a step too early.

Yet I can only take this much of

SOLITUDEfckthisi'mguilty

26 June

2008-06-26T07:14:00.000-07:00

In our family portrait,
we look pretty happy.
Let's play pretend,
Act like it comes naturally.

Can we work it out?
Can we be a family?
I'll promise I'll be better
I'll do anything

Please
I'm already lonelier than alone.

VIVI

2008-06-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

Boys and girls, I'm truly apologetic for being so motivated to procrastinate to blog. Thus explaining the long time lapse since my last post.

Life's been a bitch as usual, with things happening, everywhere everytime. A series of both unfortunate and fortunate events complimented my seemingly pointless and long holiday, which I could say spiced things up a little, in an ironic way. But nevertheless, we're still here, and the world goes on.

Baby so wild and shy

Don't leave me dry and high

Believe me, sparks would fly

With the feeling up and fine

Getting tired of waiting in line

Wouldn't you say yes to mine

Come on Baby, I ain't much time

Either way, two heart die.

FRESH

2008-04-27T09:49:00.001-07:00

When Wilbert Wonders.

I forgot to breathe
It took a while before it ceased
What's the cause, some might inquire
Of this I'm not obliged to inspire
Oblivious to them who see and pretend to understand
Yet, so vivid to you who feels and comprehend
My Minerva of the Orient

Then again,
Is it just me or three's a crowd?
Assumptions you may say
But of such, I then have no interest to play
And this I would say
Misfits of Love

Stay nice and be safe
Bert loves.

Last day of FANTXX

2008-04-17T11:05:00.000-07:00

Tmr marks the end of FANTAZIA.
Ironically, I'm not keen to see to its closure.
Then again, all good things come to an end.

It wasn't the little blingblings that caught my eyes

But the smile that kept me so distracted

Tribute

2008-04-15T10:02:00.000-07:00

Alright people. Hello once again. =)

You have my assurance that this would be a CRAP-FREE entry. LOL. Although its kinda hard to believe, but I really wanna dedicate this entry to pen down heartfelt thoughts and emotions which I hardly ever speak off. =)

As most of you have already or may not even know, its been a year since I've stopped dancing due to some health implications as well as overwhelming workload from school. And its not till recently that I've restarted dancing. Of which has taken its toll and resulted in the deterioration of my basics and techniques. Nevertheless, I was still given the chance to perform for FANTAZIA. Thus I wanna make use of this opportunity to say some things which I really wanna let you guys and girls know. Things which I know that EVERYBODY wouldn't take me seriously for when I say it in their faces. =(

I'll start with the freshies.
HELLO FRESHIES, though I've been in NRA 2 years earlier than you all, but when I came back and saw all the new faces, it kinda dawned upon me that actually considering the time in which I returned, it actually make me one of you. And of course, I don't feel lonely, with the whole bunch of you all learning together with me, especially its an entire crazy bunch of people that's helluva fun to hang out with. I do hope you all press on even after FANTAZIA, knowing some might leave us, and be even more motivated as a dancer and a member of the NRA family. =)
Rang wo men get high and yi qi jia you. YES AH.
One day I was chilling at the beacon's block...

Next up, Ron's batch.
I do admit it felt weird seeing and mixing with you all initially after being MIA for so long, but somehow I personally felt that things kinda picked up along the way and I sort of managed to adjust into the frequency in which we can communicate comfortably? LOL. Aights you get what I mean. Besides, the improvements in which you all have attained during this period of time were amazing. People like RONNIE, FARID, VICTORIA, JAEI, NICOLD, HANNAH, BAOWEN, JJ, ALEX, WEIJIE, DAVID and of course everyone else too, I felt that there's so much to learn from all of you, RONNIE's insane stamina, fcking big movements, FARID's expression, NICOLD's bao fa li, BAOWEN's iso. Madness I tell you, its not overrated but I do respect all of you in a way of another. =)

Followed by, my batch.
Our batch was the only batch that didn't really stood the test of time, considering the amount of people that remained in NRA from our batch. Still we had a gem amongst us, its not as though we aren't shiny luh but he's just shone more brightly than us. LOL. I guess by now you people have already concluded who I'm referring to. the KOSMANZ. Seriously, I could recall the very day we were in the same camp group. He was wearing a checkered pyjamas pants which everybody gawked at, and 2 years later, he made sure everybodys' jaws dropped when he danced lyrical. Of course not forgetting people like PEIYI, QIAN, XIANG, SEOW TING, LUPING its really hard to think of people from my batch as there's like only a miserable handful and to make things worse, its awfully confusing when we merged with the seniors. Guys and girls, we managed to come this far despite the massive outflux of people, and I dare to say that I'm proud to be in the same intake batch with you guys. Though to some which I seldom speak much to, like MINGLI, JEN, ANGEL, SHIRLEY, you people did leave something for me to reminisce. Like our first VIRGIN COUNTDOWN performance, on the wet stage over the wading pool. =)

Time for my senior's batch.
Damn la, you people, no matter who you are, VON S. (LOL), YEN, LILING, REBECCA, ARIEL, CLEMENT, XF, SOPHAN, KEN, TER, JUNCHAO, GLEN, WQ, MAE, you all I seriously nothing to say. I can imagine life in NRA without you all, means NO CRAPPING, NO LOUSY JOKES, NO LATENIGHT MEALS, NO BUBBLE TEA, NO POINTLESS CONVERSATION, NO STUPID NICKNAMES, NO ACT SMARTNESS, NO NONSTOP CAMERA POSING, NO EMONESS, NO HIGHNESS, NO RANDOM COUPLES, NO PROCRASTINATION, NO SWEARING, NO REPETITION OF COLD JOKES, NO FUN, NO LAUGHTER, NO UGLY PEOPLE, LOL. ok I kidding nia, dont scold me. LOL. After all this time, you guys make NRA feel like a second home to me, though always abusing me and laughing AT and not WITH me.
Wo zhen de bu neng xiang xiang mei you ni men de NRA. =)
Wo zhen de ai ni men. ZHEN DE. LOL

Last but not least, ANN.
Ann, since the day you took me in, you became a mentor and a mother to me. Not only in dance, but in aspects of life.
I remembered when the first thing you taught me was the hand wave during S&W, 3 simple steps and all you said was practise.
I remembered how I screwed up my audition so badly that I freestyled into the freestyle segmen, and you smiled and mouthed its okay.
I remembered how I encountered severe motor problems that even I couldn't help myself, and so many other setbacks, that shook even the determination to do you proud and not let you regret accepting me into NRA. Not only did you assure me, you inspired me to do even greater things. Like a mother, you never fail to lend a listening ear whenever I had to rant even about the most fckedup tutor I ever had. You graciously welcomed me back with open arms after this one year, and constantly encouraging me of what I could achieve, even till moments ago just before I reached home. Words which appeases even the greatest despair and resentment. No words could convey or even express how much I love and appreciate you, for leaving such a deep footprint in this part of my life. Ann, thank you. =)

That's all folks, I guess its kinda long for an entry like this, and I didn't realise I could write this much without saying nonsensical stuff. LOL.
Before I go, I would like to say ALL THE BEST FOR FANTAZIA to NRA.
We'll pull through. No matter what. WE KNOW IT. =)

If you feel what I feel

Let me see what you see

Then we can both set sail and be free

FRESH

2008-03-17T12:00:00.001-07:00

Hello people, I'm back from my self declared abstinence from virtual outlet of innate feelings. Damn, its been that long since I had the urge to blog, and it finally came back, its like this voice resounding in my head constantly, I had to blog. LOL. Okay, I'm exaggerating and you don't really have to take my words for it anyway.

Life's pretty much all about dance right now, apart from the fact that I'm still trying to dust off the rustiness that accumulated and time really isn't on my side now, considering its like a week's time to showtime. LOL.

Back to business, you've guessed it, indeed, the true intent of this entry.
MOTH ( Matters Of The Heart)
Is now a Oxford registered and approved abbreviation, officially derived by none other than yours truly, KING WILBERT JR XII. LOL.
Any misuse, verbal or written, would be viewed as insurmountable insult to one's integrity and intelligence, resulting in outbursts of uncontrollable laughters accompanied by synchronized jeering, 3 times a day after meal.
I seriously should stop writing rubbish, my friends warned me specifically that the BIG SHOTS at BLOGGERS would randomly read blogs and remove any of which they regard as totally nonsensical and a total waste of time and effort. LOL. And you really believed that. LOL.

I'm putting my blog at jeopardy,so that you BORED people at home, snacking in front of your monitors, have something to read and laugh at. That's how much I love you guys and girls. =)

Alright, here's a little riddle to my lingering affection.

It came knocking once again

the meek and gentle of your kind

Its really hard to keep my sane

those smiles that put me on cloud nine

but like your eyes, I'll hesitate

for happiness always lagged behind

for some it hides like yesterday

and affliction is all you find

God must have been working hard

when he assembled you

whatever it takes

2008-03-12T10:32:00.000-07:00

There's this song by an all time favorite band of mine.

Somehow it hit me rather badly.

Give it a listen.

Whatever it takes by Lifehouse.

We're all wounded anyway

In our respective ways

Cash back

2008-02-26T22:36:00.000-08:00

I let love in once, it almost got me killed.
I let it in twice, I deserve to die.

For the love of God, spare the pleasantries.
Its about time we get sick and tired of the game
Which people sucked at playing.

One last point.
The difference in the weight of our words amazes me.
It disappoints me even more.

Setting things straight

2008-02-16T10:50:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm supposedly burying my head amongst mountains of notes
And swimming in the sea of distress
And all of a sudden and out of the blue
a thought came across my mind
A thought so disturbingly annoying
It was you
And the thing is it kinda made me smile a little
Those kinda slight arc my lips formed when I read your texts
And then Buyer Behaviour is the process...

I've slowly came to accept the fact that its no longer about what I want
And things don't usually go the way you want them to be
Especially when it comes to something so delicate that it defies definition.

If I could make it through this world without ~~loving~~ you.

second valentines

2008-02-11T08:12:00.000-08:00

GONG HEI FATT CHOIed
This concludes a season of Ang Baos collecting, High stakes gambling, Goodies stuffing, Steamboat cooking, Alcohol boozing, Not-so-close-act-close relatives visiting and last but not least. Orange exchanging. LOL.
Ever wonder how you can use just 2 mandarin oranges to exchange for like 300 odd SING, and still get back the 2 very same oranges that you brought along? Amazing how the exchange rates fluctuates over Chinese New Year, LAI LAI CHENG HUAN HONG BAO! LIANG LI YI GE!

OH how I simply detest this time of the year. So whats the next big thing that's coming up? WALANTINES. and of course EXAMS. Bring on the misery and the love. HATE the season, LOVE the papers. LOL. Ya right. Talk about perfect love, what about GPA 4.0, its PERFECT too. LOL. Okay screw this. As by tradition, here's a little something inspired by and written for this sweet overrated lovey dovey, lips smoochy, earlobes nibbly, touchy feely, okay I should stop, lest things take an erotic turn and spoil the ROMANTIK mood. HEY! Remember to quote my name. Its ORIGINAL and COPYRIGHTED.

"It woke Sleeping beauty from her eternal slumber

It murdered his sanity and left his heart to smother

It caused Cinderella to lose her glass slipper

It took away his reasoning and broke his soul to slivers

It never allowed Rapunzel to cut her hair

It consumed his will to yield and had him living on a prayer

It persuaded Snow White to consume the apple of Death

It robbed his rationality and stole his very last breath

It was LOVE, It was HER."

Now that the world isn't ending
it's love that I’m sending to you.
It isn’t the love of a hero,
and that’s why I fear it won’t do.
Well I'd hope that since we're here anyway
That we could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up staying

Be strong
Someone told me love would all save us

emo

2008-01-27T10:00:00.000-08:00

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky

Confusing stars for satellites

I never dreamed that you'd be mine

But here we are, we're here tonight

And as we lie beneath the stars

We realize how small we are

If they could love like you and me

Imagine what the world could be

-I miss you

Dumbfck

2008-01-17T00:38:00.001-08:00

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.

I'm going to the place where love

And feeling good don't ever cost a thing

Where everyone loved and nobody lied

And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain

Abstraction, in large doses, can starve off yearning

The way your innocence tastes

Random

2008-01-08T06:13:00.000-08:00

Love is free yet stifling. Utterly contradictory.

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left

On my knees, I'll ask

Last chance for one last dance

Cause with you, I'd withstand

All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it all

I'd give for us

Give anything but I won't give up

All I wanted

I wanted you to stay

Cause I needed

I need to hear you say

that I love you

2008

2008-01-01T09:33:00.000-08:00

Well, again I apologise for the abrupt disappearance. Unknowingly, another year wasted, okay, maybe its not that bad. But it always seems to me that, whenever a year has gone by, I just lost some more time, if I were to describe it, its another year WELL RETARDED.

Nevertheless, HELLO 2008.

Any resolutions? Let's cut the bullshit, cause resolutions are just a bunch of crappy stuff that we say and never keep. Why do we even have them in the first place? To PRETEND that we're TRYING to FIX things that you and I both know we NEVER wanted to at ALL. Well, then again, these are my words. Some of you might beg to differ, but WHO CARES? LOL.

As they always say, REMINISCING is full of nostalgia, but COME ON, believe it or not, RECOLLECTION means PRESERVATION. So start DIGGING. LOL.

Sad to say, there's always that little amount of guilt, remorse, something on the darker side left inside, something that so happened left behind along the way. And this specific feeling that we try so hard to conceal, but its undeniable that both you and I can feel it, tugging at strings of our very heart. Something that we would never wanna see it ever again.
And the very fact that what goes around come around scares us. Time has got a way of taking back, somehow, in a way or another.

Perhaps there were things that should be said, but were left unsaid.
Perhaps there were things that should be done, but were left undone.
Perhaps there were things that shouldn't be said, but were said.
Perhaps there were things that shouldn't be done, but were done.
Perhaps there were things we want to remember.
Perhaps there were things we want to forget.
Perhaps there were things we wished would happened.
Perhaps there were things we wished would never.

Before I end this post, I would like to show great love and appreciation, for those who mattered and were there for me ALL the WAY. In no specific order. These people I specially endear.

Gil, Peiyi, Terence, Vincent, Simin

And for those not mentioned but remembered. Much loves. Xiang, WQ, Clement, BJon.

And allow me to ask forgiveness for those whom I have trespassed. =)

Every step I take, every move I make

Every single day, every time I pray

I'll be missing you

Thinkin of the day, when you went away

What a life to take, what a bond to break

I'll be missing you

Long time

2007-12-16T10:29:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, and girls. Finally, after absentinence from blaspheming in pixelated diary, I just realised its been 2 months, motherfckin hell, I didnt even know that time flew. Anyway, despair no more my teasured readers, I've gathered much materials I require to include in my entries, JUST for your very own reading pleasure. And to think that you really believed that. LOL. I'm gonna blog about.

NOTHING. fckit. this is getting too dumb for my own good. and yours too. Let's stop this, shall we?
Anyway, have I ever mentioned that FUCK is actually a sentence enhancer? LOL.
I really shouldn't continue.
Its like everytime you wanna get something across strongly, FUCK goes in front of the verb. Like "Why won't you FCKIN listen?"
And the word TARD sounds plainly stupid, but if you're a FCKTARD, OHBOY, you're a fckin goner. Okay, this is way too vulgar and totally unrefined, but you do get my point. What's the purpose of me telling you all that shit, to somehow or rather educate you that there's nothing wrong in vocalising theF word, it's perfectly alright in the English context, and a guaranteed way for point to get your point, loud and clear.

Honestly, I can't think of much to share with you guys this time around, AWWWWWWWWWWWW.
Don't cry, next update real soon. Promise.
Thanks for checking in on me occasionally.
bertloves.peace.

Re Blogging

2007-10-21T11:37:00.000-07:00

Okay, 2 months have passed since my last update.
And HELLO. Glad that you're still here to check for those WHASSUP in my life. Ya.
(NODS HEAD WITH AWKWARD SILENCE)
Eh, I wonder how many people still visit this forsaken URL. LOL.

I really dont have much to say but that erm. PEIYI's just celebrated her bday, hope she did have plenty of fun, I mean its gonna be kinda sad, after all the fckedup relationshit and still lonely. LOL. Alright, I'm not kidding. LOL. =)

I seriously can't think of any piece of RANDOM shit to say. FCKS. its like I'm updating for the sake of UPDATING. which means by updating to keep you updated, in other words I would update updated updates that would update those who aren't really updated. I'm not spluttering NONSENSE like TERENCE. It makes perfect sense. READ SLOWLY for people with LOUSY ENGLISH. DEEEEEELAY.

Oh, maybe there's really one thing, HALLOWEEN's round the CORNER. And YOU HUNS UNITE. :$
NI HAO! WO SHI YOU HUN! WOOOOOOOOO............ WOOOOOOOOOOO.............

All right, thats all for now. Thanks for all the smiles.

29

2007-08-28T07:30:00.001-07:00

Rain is gone, and yet yours to keep

The sun rise no more, the guilty weeps

How these antics became a bore

Came knocking by the sinner's door

Craving her beloved dead

She finally laid down in her bed

29 reasons to forfeit the game.

at least things got better for the pretty dame.

She'stheonlyfriendthathasn'tturnedonmeyet
Butshewill
Theyalwaysdo.

Morbidity for breakfast

How does that sound?

No wonder they say smiles don't come cheap.

Sorry Blame it on me

2007-08-14T07:13:00.002-07:00

With a soft and sweet kiss,

Tears filled her eyes.

A figure of innocence,

That soon met her demise.

And I'm not blind to know

All the pain you kept inside you

Even though you might not show

Becauseiloveyou,i'lltakethatblame

You can put the blame on me.
='(

Misery and Tragedy

2007-08-13T21:48:00.000-07:00

Misery was alone, which he hated to be
Until he found Tragedy.
Now he follows where ever she may be,
for Misery loves company.

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me tonight?

The ride home

2007-08-10T23:06:00.000-07:00

Last night was one helluva wild night, 24 hours of midnights.
And the ride home.
I wished it would all never go away.

Reminisce of such cherished moments.

Leong, Teo, Muah, YJ, Rick, Jo, Minghui.
Dopest bunch of DRINKERS. Not forgetting the HUFF&PUFF.
Follow-up session after papers as promised.

The vagueness in your eyes
The casual goodbyes
The chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
I fell too fast, and feel too much

Your faith in the present

Crumbles every single excuse of mine

To live for the future

She's not happy

2007-07-30T09:51:00.000-07:00

You make me wanna take the world away
So that it doesn't hurt anymore.

Art

2007-07-26T09:21:00.000-07:00

What's cold on the outside,

Warm on the inside,

And all round lovely dovey?

Yet fills the heart with perplexity,

Dabbles with the line between nobility and insanity.

What's all dainty and sweet-smelling,

Haughty and mind boggling,

Whiny and not the least forebearing.

Absolutely loquacious,

Completely frivolous,

Not forgetting surprisingly cordial.

What's lost but never forgone,

Had but never belonged.

This is a humble attempt of a riddling poem

Or should I say a rhyming riddle.

But allow me to say,

It's all but my heartfelt conveys.

Thou shalt go forth and seize the day.

The epitome of happiness. And grief.

A certain left-handed sugar and spice.

As if things couldn't get worse. FEELFCKED.

Peace.

I'm sorry

2007-07-25T01:34:00.000-07:00

I had the dream again.

Just that this time round

its closer to never.

If I'd known better

Words that were never meant to cut

Actions that were never meant to incise

Anything to take away the pain

Even if this abstinence is driving me insane.

Perhap's we'll be better off

After all, the heart's only made for one

Come what may

I will love you until my dying day

What happened

2007-07-21T08:54:00.001-07:00

It's like love no longer come around this way anymore.

Angels they burn inside for us

Are we ever gonna learn to fly?

Cause I am hanging on every word you say

And even if you don't want to speak tonight

That's alright, alright with me.

End of the walk.

2007-07-18T10:18:00.000-07:00

At least euphoria is now guilt-free.
At least gone are the complications.
At least the numerals have decreased.
At least hope no longer exists.
At least there's an eventually.
At least you are happier.
After all, its just me.

I'm sorry for blaming you
for all the things I couldn't do

The walk home took so much longer than usual.

Text

2007-07-12T05:51:00.000-07:00

You have no idea what
5 cents worth of pixelated smile
=)
is capable of doing
the wonders it does.
that's 10 cents today.

words that kill

2007-07-10T18:59:00.000-07:00

Compromise is a two-way street

Where's the traffic on the other side?

when words kill more than just hope

On the outside looking in
Its already as hard as it seems

But all the miles that separate

They disappear now when I'm dreaming about your face

I'm here without you baby

but you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

and I dream about you all the time

MINDS

2007-07-08T02:59:00.000-07:00

There's nowhere else on Earth I'd rather be
There's no one else on Earth I'd rather see

Indeed you put a smiley on my face.
=)

Home again

2007-06-29T08:25:00.000-07:00

And the moment you've been waiting for.
Yes! I'm BACK. =)
Hokayes, thats all for now. MAYBE a MEGAPIC post soon. just MAYBE.

My heart's in overdrive, and you're behind the steering wheel

So much left unsaid

So much left undone

Now we're all back at one.

Many things I wished I could say, now I don't have another day

the one who loves

wholeheartedly.

imissyou.

<\3

Shanghai

2007-06-20T11:06:00.000-07:00

From a fifth person point of view
I heard from this guy who told somebody

Cause you came at a time

When the pursuit of one true love

in which to fall,

was the be all and end all.

Love is only but a feeling.

On a lighter note.

SHANGHAI in 3 days.

Leaving on a jet plane

Won't you wanna sit next to me?

Gone

2007-06-11T05:30:00.000-07:00

It wasn't your fault
Neither its mine
Maybe its just not time.

I've got a story its almost finished
Honestly what would become of me?

Let's all indulge in the guiltless euphoria
Ironically, she looked so happy with him.

~~The spills and thrills with lovely smile and giggles all mixed with your hugs and kisses~~

As you walk away

I count the steps that you take
Keep walking and never look back
I miss you

Love?

2007-06-08T07:12:00.000-07:00

My cheeks are turning red

I'm searching for the words inside my head

Guess I'm wishing my life away

With these things I'll never say

Knowing that we were alone
Even if forever is impossible
What is this guilt trip that I'm on?

Missing you is killing me softly

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

Soon enough seems like forever nowadays

Forgetten

2007-05-31T09:59:00.000-07:00

And then came along a little boy,
All torn and forlorn
They don’t see a thing
Inside his heart lies aching
If only she had a clue
Shackles that bind
There couldn’t be anything more

perfect in one place
Her beauty lies deeper

than just her face
Chains that hold
Watching the tragedy unfolds

As he stands by the side
Provocative emotions he held and sighs
After all, nobody could expect to fall in love and never cry

For you
If there were no tomorrow

Would you lie here with me and forget the world?

I've betrayed my soul

Marketing Sports Day

2007-05-30T05:28:00.000-07:00

" Pain, pain go away.

Don't come back ever again.

Little toey wants to play.
Pain, pain go away."

I'm tired of being so alone and blue.
But I always smile when thinking of you.

Needless to say I am thinking of you

Thank God for TB14.

Thank God for YOU.

=(

2007-05-26T02:29:00.000-07:00

You showed me the endless possibilities of happiness.

If you're happier this way
If only you'll stay
If only I'd disappear

Time can take it's toll on the best of us
Look at you you're growing old so young
Traffic lights blink at you in the evening
Tilt your head and turn it to the sun
Sometimes the T.V. is like a lover
Singing softly as you fall asleep
You wake up in the morning and it's still there
Adding up the things you'll never be

Alright, I can say what you want me to,
Alright, I can do all the things you do,
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you

Time can take it's toll on the best of us
Look at you you're growing old so young
Traffic lights blink at you in the evening
You tilt your head and turn it to the setting sun
You disembark the latest flight from paradise
You almost turn your ankle on the snow
You fall back into where you started
Make up words to songs you used to know
So...

Alright, I can say what you want me to,
Alright, I can do all the things you do,
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you,

The hard luck god
You never had a chance you know
Incurable romantics never do
He held the flame I wasn't born to carry
I'll leave the dieing young stuff up to you
You get back on the latest flight to paradise
I found out, from a note taped to the door
I think I saw your airplane in the sky tonight
Through my window, lying on the kitchen floor.

The song will lie quietly in our throats.

Ferrying the smile from our dreams,

While reminding us

That anything in this world is possible.

Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
250707.

Angels are forever

Love is forever

Things won't be the same as before

I love you so much more

Ming Hui

2007-05-11T08:22:00.000-07:00

They said Seeing is Believing.

I have never believed in Angels.

Until I found you.

I’M LOVING ANGELS INSTEAD.
(God loves.) =)

Thanksgiving.

2007-03-27T09:16:00.000-07:00

Sex is a sin.

Kissing is a shame.

Boys have all the fun,

while Girls get the blame.

In this world when all things are made to be broken.

Let's etch this moment down in our memories.

AFS

MVP 2004

Indianporn DLer

You bunch of ASSHOLES ain't the funniest,

ain't the most understanding,

ain't the most sensitive,

ain't the smartest,

and hell not the most good looking.

But nevertheless.

Thanks for everything. Really.

Not forgetting you as well. =)

Credits to Babysann. Its been a while. But you still bothered anyway.

For that I'm grateful too.

Hyperinflation

2007-03-21T09:19:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps, I'm back, but ain't for long eh.
I just had to blog about something. And in the meantime, while I'm at it, let you fellas know I'm still alive and kicking. So here goes, the long awaited post. LOL.

Regarding this certain issue that serves to be the ultimate MIND BOGGLING and DISTURBING problem at hand, is currently UNIDENTIFIED. Fortunately, or NOT, I am able to relate it to an ECONOMICAL problem that CRIPPLED several nations financial ability during World War II.

Hyperinflation, which litetally means the uncontrollable swelling of the head, giving the specific individuals an all time high 24/7. And there's this thing about the insurmountable amount of ego seeping out of them, that you can just smell it miles away. Besides other symptoms include public display of extreme arrogance and sheer ignorance that almost proves to be highly offensive and provocative. Thus being so, shrugging off mistakes and pushing blames, even to a non-existant object are common behavior that can be observed. Please do take precaution against people of such nature, as this outbreak is deemed to be highly CONTAGIOUS and contracting it would cause tremendous DISTRESS to one's social health. Good luck.

And if you fellas were wondering. I ain't really keen going about discussing other matters right now. So just till then. Adios.

Let's share some love, and burst the balloons of fat hope.

Believe me when I say I feel your pain.
Believe me when I say I share your agonies.
Believe me when I say friends are so much more.
Believe me when I say you are so much more.

Overwhelming emptiness.

If only those zones weren't temporal.

Vday

2007-01-27T09:19:00.000-08:00

The end of fear is where we begin.

The moment we decided to let love in.

Valentinexams round the corner, definitely NOT the FAVOURITE time of the year. Stop LYING that you've got REVISIONS to cover, you will NEVER run away from the CRUELTY of this FAITHFUL day. But SERIOUSLY, In-between and Settler's ain't pretty much the best thing to indulge during Valentines'. Please, please, please, peas...

Our father in heaven, forgive me as I've sinned,

This night I pray that may my buddy Terence Then Kwok Keong

And I myself, Wilbert Tan Juay Hong,

Be blessed by your loving grace.

Comfort our ever lonely souls as we step closer to that very day.

When we witness the transcend of love from all the Adams and Eves.

No matter where we might be

What we do

May we do find warmth as well within our companionship of one another

And that I bring to you in Jesus name

Amen.

Anyway, so much said than done. Perhaps.

I wasn't even entitled my jurisdiction. And you convicted me right way.
Inconvenient acquintance, that's what they call it.

My insecurities could eat me alive.
Love graciously for you would be graciously loved in return.

On this crossroad at this time of your life, where words are futile, what more could you do but to just sit and watch this world pass you by. Cause you and I both know.
From Emomixed to Skaterboy, can you please decide? Come on, even if you don't make it, you have like a MILLION and ONE backup plans to fall back on. Why do you even bother fretting over it? Give without remembering, take without forgetting. Keep smiling sunshine:)

My name starts with a "W", has a "B" in the middle, and ends with a "T".

Life's littered with full stops, how much difference could another possibly make?

I'm out.

Please hear me

2007-01-23T08:40:00.000-08:00

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Against all the odds, I chose to believe.

Somewhere along in bitterness.
I pray when it all ends in revelation.
They would all be wrong.
For there's not much room for disappointment.

You're a bullet through my soul
And I'll never let you know
I won't let you fall until you let it go

I guess I'm feeling things that you've been feeling, and I guess that's the only way to really understand what you have felt previously, and I don't really mind going through the pain; because....
There's no reason why.
There's no reason why I wouldn't mind going through the pain.
If there is such a need for a reason,
It's because,

I love you,
more than what I could ever say.

Belated Christmas

2007-01-21T08:45:00.000-08:00

Hey What's UP people? What ELSE but the SKY of course. Aye LET's get STARTED, shall we?
Okay, right NOW by a SHOW of DISTORTED faces,

how MANY of you LADIES and GENTLEMAN out there MISS me?
( I don't really fancy GUYS. NO really.)
Next.

how MANY of you GAYS and FAGS are SICK and TIRED of getting AROUSED and JACKING to Mr THEN's personal PHOTO?
( Just CRACKING around. NO really.)

It's been QUITE some time now since my LAST ENTRY. And that PROFILE of Mr Then SURE CONTRIBUTED its FAIR share of DRIVING readers AWAY from my BLOG. Well THEN, let's get DOWN to BUSINESS and keep my BLOG running.

Life's been pretty much CRAZY lately. Apart from the almost REGULAR "In Between" sessions and IMPROMPTU stayovers which prove to be HIGHLY ADDICTIVE and WEALTH GENERATING for SOME. EVERYTHING feels like its SPIRALLING beyond CONTROL. I guess GOD screwed up the FORMULAs, that explains why NOTHING make SENSE. Things I WITNESSED somehow or rather HINTED SUBTLY that I was EXPECTED to FAIL, Things I HEARD REINFORCED the THOUGHT. I call this COLLATERAL DAMAGE. Then AGAIN, it's NEVER enough to GRANT me my DEATHWISH, but to keep me HANGING by that so ever FAMILIAR LIFELINE.

"Sometimes in life if you really have to match a reason to every decision you make, life's gonna be just a definition game."

Life's a puzzle, and you're the missing piece.

Finally, I shall leave you all with a SUBMISSION by BABYSANN, judging from the CONTENT, its not that HARD to IMAGINE how OLD it is. =)

If only I could, I assure you I would

After all this time, when I thought I could just walk away.

I LOVE you.

What's more left to say?

When nothing else matters.

Fame

2006-12-18T10:00:00.000-08:00

Some things is life are SELF-EXPLANATORY.

Check out this KID who just had his FIRST ever bar of TIMEOUT.

What else more could I say?

(P.S. Ter, A man gotta do what a man gotta do, I love you the same. promise.)

Reincarnate.

2006-12-14T07:20:00.000-08:00

Hi people. If there are still any around. As you can see I've reBLOGGED, which means the WINDOW to the NONSENSICAL shit is O-P-E-N, OPENED. So HOORAY? Okay. I guess not. At least I can be your ANTIDOTE to the MUNDANITY of the MORTAL WORLD. So CHOOSE WISELY, my fellow KINDRED.

Enough of the BULLCRAP already. LOL

To be honest, my LIFE came to a COMPLETE standstill some time back. That's why WILBERT decided not to BLOG about anything since HE deemed that it was TOTALLY POINTLESS and its just be a MAJOR WASTE OF PIXELS. I TRULY am APOLOGETIC about my SUDDEN DISAPPEARANCE, trust ME when I say it was NEVER my WISH to FORSAKE you in such TROUBLED TIMES, when every OUNCE of CRAP determined LIFE and DEATH.
As the saying goes, "Never UNDERESTIMATE a BLOGGER. only to OVERRATE his BLOG." if you ever get what it means." Don't bother asking what got me back on my ASS with my CLAMMY fingers on the CREAKY keyboard, typing DEMENTATED phrases across the FLICKERING screen. Cause even MUAH has NUO IDIOT. Did I just say IDIOT? Oh whatever. The message that I'm trying to convey is SIMPLE and COMPREHENSIVE. I'm BACK, but not in BLACK, but in STYLE. WOOTS!
I hereby PROCLAIM that under NO CIRCUMSTANCES that the WEAK, POOR or the ELDERLY would SUFFER under the OPPRESSION of BOREDOM ever AGAIN. Remember CHILD, whenever you FEEL that CRINGY feeling TINGLING in your BONES, even if its just a LITTLE, or you THINK its just your IMAGINATION, you know that OBLITERATION is just a CLICK away. MUAHAHAHAHAH... ... .. .. . (trails off to an AWFULLY AWKWARD SILENCE.)

Anything in the world to relive that moment in history.

Oh yeah by the way. Before it slips off my MIND, like an EEL. In case you guys were CURIOUS, or should I be NICE and say INQUISITIVE. =)
SANTA wrote me an APOLOGY letter, regarding his INCAPABILITY of DELIVERING my PRESENT this YEAR. To think I've already HUNG a LIFE-SIZE SOCK by my BED. Life SUCKS dude, like a freaking TORNADO or something.

And the freaking COMMON TEST. I swear I studied my ASS of the LIBRARY CHAIR, and almost got BOOKED for MUGGING LOUDLY. STILL I made like a ZILLION careless MISTAKES which I should be SHOT DEAD on the SPOT for. Anyway I wanna THANK JACLYN CHUA, VANESSA LIEW, VANESSA TAY, EVELYN TAN for being my BIGGEST SOURCE of MOTIVATION through these times of TRIAL. And for all those who contributed in a way or another. just a small thank you.

Till the next time. Hope you enjoyed my PIXELATED train of THOUGHTS.
CHOO-CHOoo... Chugga-chugga... ... ...

Peace out.

If only I could hit the restart button.

Post Production

2006-11-18T03:55:00.000-08:00

Well, production's pretty much over. with so MANY people BLOGGING about it. I shan't elaborate further. Just maybe a THANKYOU and GODLOVES note to all those who have CHIPPEDin in every possible way along MY JOURNEY. Esp you with the big A. And many other friends too. It would take me 3 lifetimes to finish the list so please pardon my brevity.

Are you warming up to me?

Now that everything's kinda SLOWING down for ONCE. I guess it's a GOOD thing for us, well, not ALL of us, that's for sure. Having too much time on your HAND nowadays ain't really a thing to REJOICE about, you start thinking SHITLOADS about EVERYTHING and ANYTHING under the SUN in the UNIVERSE. And funny how it ALWAYS goes back to you. Like a bloody RIPPLE effect. Some NAME it KARMA. Others DE JAVU.

It can't rain all the time.

Oh ya, its about this time of the year when I start drafting my WISHLIST to SANTA. You GUYS should start too. Its always better to send it out early to avoid CONGESTION, the POST OFFICE gets real BUSY around early December. And MANY letters get MISPLACED or MISMAILED, and they NEVER got to SANTA. Maybe that's the reason why he NEVER got to you. You won't want that to happen to you THIS YEAR, would you? Happy writing.

"The heart has its reasons which the mind cannot comprehend."

Poem

2006-11-09T09:55:00.000-08:00

Literature Demise

I
Flickering images through the window in the living.
Nauseating smell of soot churned,
in my insides. Solemnly
with my remaining brethrens
and that thick grey coat,
I laid long gone and forgotten.
M
Gone were the days,
And this torch that’s engulfing me in whole?
When I captivated more than
my audience, Emptiness
of the world is all I know.
Resembling a magician who offered nothing,
more than pure entertainment.
A
Defaced,
like a deranged madman.
Nobody bothers to look,
beneath the surface.
If only redemption could just be as haste.
G
Invasive smell of fresh ink suffocates,
sneering with provocation.
Cold clammy fingers,
sent shivers down my spine.
The affection still lingers.
Now that I’m the next in line.
I
Crackling of the firewood,
resounded like symphony to the ears.
Sweet scent of the seething timber,
Liberation is just
Near.
N
I looked
for the sun.

But its raining today.

Wilbert
Nunc scio quit sit amor

Note

2006-11-08T18:07:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION

This is a shout out to all of the ACTORS and ACTRESSES of NRA.

With your best MAKEUP, wearing your best COSTUMES, its TIME to DO what we DO BEST. Let's put on the GREATEST show for ALL to SEE. Let's put our HEART and SOULS into CHERISHING this ONCE in a LIFETIME chance to showcase our TALENTS. We have been PRACTISING too HARD for it to FAIL. Right from the START till the end.

Trust ME, it WILL be a BERTERRIFFIC show of the CENTURY.

A lil something to lift your BURDENED souls.

"When the going gets tough, the tough gets going."

Answer?

2006-11-06T09:16:00.000-08:00

You showed me the possibility of delirium I could only imagine.

YESorNO?

Stress

2006-10-30T22:38:00.000-08:00

The following entry are CONFESSIONS penned by a LIAR who always speaks the TRUTH.

Life's on the fast lane has been too HECTIC for ME. Everybody's BLOGGING about the UPCOMING PRODUCTION, about how STRESSFUL and TIRING it has been. So much so for ME that I don't mind STEPPING over onto the SIDEWALK to slow things down for a bit.

LOADS and LOADS of stuff have been on my MIND of late. Somehow my MIND doesn't CAPITALISE on the FREE time I RARELY have to REST and OBSTINATELY chooses to BOOGLE itself with ALL the UNSUNG PARODIES of LIFE. GAWD! I SERIOUSLY needa a BREAK. JOE a little HELP here please? =)

Quote of the day:

Love isn't a matter of circumstances, but of choice.

imissyou.asusual.

Stole my Heart.

Butchered my Hope.

Murdered my Faith.

Torched my Flesh.

The cat's out of the bag, its no longer safe.
So much for undisclosed confidentiality

Sianness

2006-10-26T05:57:00.000-07:00

Nothing's really worth blogging about these days. Maybe just a phrase for you DIMWITS to ponder about. Over BREAKFAST, LUNCH, DINNER, SUPPER. In between TRAININGS, during FULL RUN, while waiting for SELF PRACTICE. Take it as a ARGUMENTATIVE statement. Come TALK to me if you would beg to DIFFER.

THE TRUTH IS A DISTORTION OF A LIE

You give me wings when I'm falling
You lift me up when I'm down
Taking me high
Touching the sky
You make me fly

The very thing that keep many alive, was the one thing that killed me deep inside.

I'm sorry for blaming you
For all the things I couldn't bring myself to do

Controversy

2006-10-17T20:36:00.000-07:00

I'm not feeling better, just thinking straighter

BabySann drew me a picture which I deemed to be HIGHLY CONTROVERSIAL, but who gives a damn anyway? Its MY BLOG and I DECIDE what goes UP and if you're so AFFECTED by it, by ALL MEANS. LEAVE

"The exquisite corpse will drink the young wine." How's that for a change?

Blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the Earth.

Its time like this when you should BRING your HEAD back DOWN to where it BELONGS. Too MANY people are getting too AHEAD of themselves. SMIRKING at other's MISTAKE, GLOATING over other's FAILURE, CONDEMNING other's way of life. Who gave YOU the AUTHORITY to JUDGE in the first place? Are YOU even CERTAIN of what's RIGHT and what's WRONG? Men's getting too UGLY for this WORLD.

On the sixth day, God created Man.

The GREATEST mistake ever. It was Man who FORSAKEN Him.

If only I were the MESSIAH, I'll reward the NONCHALENT and crucify the IGNORANT. And the mere DIFFERENCE between them both? One is better at CONCEALING than the other, as SIMPLE as that. While you IGNORANT fools can start making ASSUMPTIONS and FALSE ACCUSATIONS, pointing FINGERS at EVERYBODY else except yourselves, I'll just confess that I'm jolly well TALKING about YOU. So learn to SHUT UP and THINK before JUMPING to CONCLUSIONS and CONVINCING yourselves that you KNOW EVERYTHING.

A friend once asked, "I wonder how you would fare in the game of love?"
I paused. And smiled.

Silence is golden.

Pillar of trust built upon a foundation of lies.

Your recommended daily intake of uninterrupted morbidity.

How much?

How long more? Imissyou.

Complications.

2006-10-17T10:06:00.000-07:00

Life is FULL of choices. When was the last time you made the RIGHT one?

Too much OCCURENCES took place in this SHORT span of time. So much so that the REALITY churns in the stomach and is almost NAUSEATING. Come on PEOPLE, let's take a WALK. Let things LIE for a bit, spare the FOLKS a little TIME to understand the CHEMISTRY and PHYSICS of everything, not FORGETTING the ART and SCIENCE too. I mean in the end its always HARD to ACCEPT the UNDENIABLE at first.

In times like THIS, the HAZE might not appear to be such a NEGATIVE thing after all. Apart from the fact that it OBSCUREs our vision from things which we SELECTIVELY missed, it also PROVIDEs us with a teatime TOPIC to break the AWKWARD silences or STARTLINE to kick off the coversation between FRIENDS.

Its about TIME the MASKS come off, let's start CLEANING up our CLOSETS.

I see the sadness in your glistening eyes
And hear the sound of your heart's silent cries

Who even bothers to look beneath the surface

I pray redemption may be just as haste

My detrimental romance. Not a mere By-catch.

//A THIRDperson's perspective.

Self induced liberation is just a heartbeat away.

Would you say YES?

2006-10-14T11:29:00.000-07:00

Today marks the last day of ATTACHMENT. and Time seems to pass astonishingly fast, or perhaps most of the time my mind wasn't with me. Just a random string of thoughts I've experienced during my mind's short lil getaway.

Somehow or rather I long forgot how love feels like along the way.

When time is no longer of the essence.

Someday you will find me caught beneath the loveslide
Dead and buried alive.

8 letters 3 words 1 meaning, fckin cliche yet the most beautiful phrase ever.

If everything could be as simple as it appears to be
What a hell of a ride it actually has been.

Spaces between your fingers are there for another's to fill.
~~NAMAMASD~~ . How I adore abbreviations.
Simplicity kills the crab.
And yet another RANDOM saying.

Thanks Val, YY, Cal and Jarvis. Though its been only 3 weeks. I've learnt much. Kudos to all. =)

Books

2006-10-13T11:45:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to post about these days. Why not allow me to share with you an interesting ADAPTION from a book? By the way, some SPECIFIC INDIVIDUAL insisted that acknowledgement should be given to the ORIGINAL SOURCE. Thus I present you THE ZAHIR by Paulo Coelho. Enjoy.

Supposedly two firemen went into a forest to douse a small fire. After which, they emerged and went over to a stream, the face of one is all smeared with black, while the other man's face is completely clean. The question is this: Which of the two will wash his face?
Like many would have guessed it, the one with the dirty face, but of course.
Ever came across to your mind that the one with the dirty looks would look at the other man and assume that he looks like him. And vice versa, the man with the clean face would see his colleague covered in grime and say to himself, "I must be dirty too, I'd better have a wash."

So what's the point I'm bringing across? It's all in the mind.

When the classic mundanity of life bores us all. That's ORIGINAL.

As the saying goes, "Never step on a tired boy's coin."
What RANDOMNESS.

If only.

Last words

2006-10-05T20:14:00.000-07:00

Sorry people for the late update. Was too busy DE-HAZING. I was having difficulties trying to locate the ALPHABETS on my KEYBOARD. It took me 3 hours just to type these sentences. I heard the PSI was like 1500 or something. But seriously man, the PEOPLE down SOUTH should really do SOMETHING about their ARSONIC tendencies as well as PYROTECHNICS fetish. Whatever it is, its causing some SEVERE ENVIRONMENTAL ISSUES to their fellow EARTHLINGS. Come on, WHERE IS THE LOVE?

LOVE is a DISEASE no one wants to get rid of. Those INFECTED never try to get better, and those who SUFFER do not wish to be CURED.
It SABOTAGES the MIND's ability to function normally, UNDERMINIG it's thought process, and CRIPPLES the human's RATIONAL thinking. It's like freaking CANCER, without the window period, once it hits you, TERMINAL stage, watch your life WASTE AWAY. It's WICKED dude. Yet many are OBLIVIOUS to it and are falling VICTIMS to its VICIOUS grip. Do you know LOVE takes up to 7 BILLION lives everyday? GOD save US.

One last thing before I go. BLOGS are sure getting more and more INTERESTING nowadays. it comes in ALL shapes and sizes. Don't you just ADORE them? What PERFECT companions they make whenever you're feeling BORED or just having too much time to kill.

Life cracked the SICKEST joke ever on me today. I merely laughed it off.

What can I do, to make it right?

Falling so hard so fast this time

What did I say, what did you do?

How did I fall in love with you?

Tribute

2006-10-05T09:06:00.000-07:00

Its been some time since I started this BLOG of MINE. And I realised I've MISSED out on 2 of the MOST IMPORTANT people in my LIFE. Today, here and here, on the 5th October 2006, this is for you guys.

Dedicated to my DEAREST MUMMY and DADDY.

Throughout this 18 years of my life, since birth and beyond

I'm grateful for you not sparing the rod on this incorrigible brat of yours

I'm sorry for the tears you've shed for my every misdeed

Even remorseful for the smiles you braved in front of me

Looking back at how's my life has changed

Reminds me how I took your teachings in vain

If I could got back all the way to square one

There's too many things I wouldn't have done

Remember how my grades sucked at school

All you said was how much better it was as compared to when I'm two

All the lies I've spun just to stay out late

Never have you once questioned why am I always in that busy state

Till now I'm repentent about the countless quarrels and squabbles we shared

And the hurtful words that shot out like I've never cared

I wasn't the bestest of the lot that God has granted you

Yet tender love and care is all that I've ever feel

Thanks for your undying support in all that I've done, even you haven't been saying much

Thanks for tolerating my ignorance and nonsense of such

Thanks for all the breakfasts on Sunday mornings, though you always forget my preferences.

Thanks for the accepting me the way you are despite my differences

Thinking back on how you used to laugh at my noble ambitions

And trying means and ways to help me out of sticky situations

I've never expressed the slightest tinge of appreciation

Not even recognising all of your hard work and perspiration

Often feeling lost and confused, not allowing you know what's happening

I just didn't want see how far down I was sinking

The Trust that you guys have in me means so much more than anything I could have imagined

Believing in me in my maturity and rationality

Even if disappointment overwhelm at times

The first thing that you cared about was whether I'm fine

I miss the warmth of your hands on my head

I miss the smile whenever I made a mistake

I miss the kiss when I'm sick in bed

I miss the hug reminding me that you're always there

I've been standing all alone against the world outside for too long

And there I thought I was so strong

I eventually forgot how to depend and confide

only to learn how to run and hide

I'm sorry

Although I doubt you guys would ever get to read this

Deep inside I hope someday you would understand at least

I hope that one day I'll grow up to be the man you want the world to see

One day I'll promise to do you proud

Daddy and Mummy,

I love you

I really do

Dilemma

2006-10-04T10:29:00.000-07:00

To be or not to be?

I'll take you for who you are.

If you take me for everything.

Thanks Sarah for the inspiration.

Childhood

2006-10-01T09:57:00.000-07:00

Roses are RED

Violets are BLUE

Sugar is SWEET

and so are you.

Listen to all the saddened tunes,

was Time supposed to heal all wounds?

Listening to all the fictitious lies,

just which of which was originally mine?

With all my secrets hidden away,

will you be the one at the end of the day?

Curiousity kills the cat,

how many actually believed in that?

When the cat's away, will all the mice really play?

GEMINIs are HIGHLY AFFECTIONATE creatures and PASSIONATE lovers.
You're beautiful, it's true.

Retro-ed.

For I love not too wisely, but too well.

Holy SHIT.

2006-09-28T10:02:00.000-07:00

Pissed with you. Give Tanks.
I read the NEWS these days, YES YES. More WIDE EYES and ASTONISHED GASPS. Its like the EXTREMIST ORGANISATION is COOKING something BIG this time, APPARENTLY its getting the EUROPEANS and AMERICANS all JITTERY and HICCUPPY. Even Mr. Bush have contracted WOBBLY KNEES, he's experiencing GREAT DIFFICULTIES making SPEECHES on the PEDESTAL. Seriously What's going on in this WORLD of OURS anyway?

What if TERRORISM is a RELIGION? just like HINDUISM, BUDDHISM. Its hard to BELLIEVE how people actually are being CONVINCED into SACRIFICING for a GREATER GOOD. Its so INFLUENTIAL that it SHAKES even the STRONG in FAITH, no matter WHO you are, WHERE you are, WHAT you do, it jsut comes for you. There's NO running away.

And one COMMON thing that ALL RELIGION never fails to PREACH is, the TRUE way to NIRVANA. Ironically, for TERRORISM, people are being LURED into BELIEVING that DYING with a BLAST is a ONE-WAY ticket to HEAVEN. Here we are GLOATING at their STUPIDITY, there we have MILLIONs of others who are BUYING that kinda NONSENSE, HAPPILY STRAPPING themselves with TONNES of EXPLOSIVES before SETTING themselves OFF in the MOST CROWDED PLACES.
Before you start being a IGNORANT RACIST, and ELIMINATE all of MUSLIM look-alike PEOPLE around you, be CLEAR that not ALL BOMBS are BROWN, there INDEED are WHITE bombs, BLACK bombs and even YELLOW bombs.
Coming to think of it, I have a PERFECT solution for all TERRORISTs who want to attain TRUE ENLIGHTENMENT, we ISOLATE them on AN ABANDONED ISLAND, ARM them with whatever EXPLOSIVES and let them BLOW one another to SMITHEREENS. This would put a STOP to any more UNNECESSARY BLOODSHED in time to come.

There's a danger in loving somebody too much

And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust.
Can't take my eyes off you. Do you feel the same way too?

Fear factor

2006-09-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

Hi People. Today I'm gonna talk about the F word, yes the FOUR letter F word. FEAR. I read it off SOMEONE ELSE's BLOG, can't really remember who? But whatever, I have a PERSONAL RENDITION of the MEANING of the word. We FEAR what we don't UNDERSTAND, in SIMPLE terms, we FEAR what's BEYOND our CONTROL. Just to NAME a FEW for EXAMPLES.
Why do we FEAR death? Because the Afterlife is a MYSTERY.
Why do we FEAR the future? Because the Uncertainty is OVERWHELMING.
Why do we FEAR Rejection? Because NOBODY is ever able to SEE WHAT'S COMING.
Why do we FEAR Emotions? Because it ALWAYS ERUPTS out of CONTROL.
And its from FEAR where PHOBIAs are DERIVED from.

Speaking of which, allow ME to INTRODUCE to you the GREATEST FEAR of RETAIL KEEPERS, another ALTERNATIVE term for SALES PERSONNEL. Every living RETAIL KEEPER fears who I call, the BROWSERS. They are the MOST IMPUDENT bunch of CREATURES that ever WALKED on EARTH, and they populate EVERYWHERE, its like they are OMNIPRESENT. They CONSIST of MOSTLY FEMALES, and are HIGHLY VERSATILE, being able to STRIKE in ANYtime, ANYwhere. Last but not LEAST, they ain't called the BROWSERS for no reason, they just keep SCRUTINIZING without MAKING PURCHASES.

As I've SAID, the RETAIL KEEPERS are POWERLESS against them. Often DEFENCELESS, the RETAIL KEEPERS could only WATCH HELPLESSLY and in AGONY as the BROWSERS flood the SHOP, PAWING away at the SHOWCASES, leaving TRAILS of OILY FINGERPRINTS in their WAKE. What's MORE, their INCESSANT INQUISITIVE QUESTIONING only cause MUCH MORE PAIN and MISERY. When they DECIDE to put an END to their BRUTAL ASSUALT and LEAVE, you can see the DEMISE and DESTRUCTION they have LEFT behind, along with the BATTERED and BRUISED faces of the RETAIL KEEPERS.

Enough of the RETAIL KEEPERs, Everybody has FEARS, including YOU and ME. No matter what it is, SOMEDAY you have to FACE FEAR in the eye, and HOPEFULLY STARE it DOWN.
Oh YES you DO. you BETTER ADmit IT, ADmit IT.
(Only TER would LAUGH to THIS. still its FCKING HILARIOUS.)
Through this walk till the end, would you let me take your hand?
He wants to be loved. though he makes little mistakes.
He is a Sensitive Emotional Thinker.

Hidden Emotions

2006-09-21T10:48:00.000-07:00

After my ABSENCE for the past 2 days, I decided to not let my READERS wait any LONGER and SUPPLY them with their REGULAR DOSAGE of RANDOM TWISTED materials on my BLOG. Many are starting to EXPERIENCE the WITHDRAWAL symptons, so much so that they can't TYPE straight anymore.
Seriously its good to be TALKING again, CONNECTING to you people. Although both you and I know that its just PURELY SUPERFICIAL communication that we're SHARING. One thing that really AMUSES me is the way PEOPLE THINK that they can actually UNDERSTAND the other PERSON's FEELINGs, just by READING their BLOG. NAIVIST i see.
Check out the new TERMINOLOGY I came up with, "Hypothetical Hypocrite" Its MEANING is as CLEAR as how its SPELT. So please don't BOTHER asking, go WORK the TOFU in between your SHOULDERS. Wallowing in Self-Pitiness and Self-Denial, Simulated Depression and Disillusion, ain't you PEOPLE TIRED of PLAYING the SAME OLD GAME over and OVER AGAIN? Stop POINTING fingers, ALL of US are in this TOGETHER. Just that, SOME just won't GIVE UP, and INSIST on CARRYING on this CHILDISH game of MAKE BELIEVE.
All I can say is SEEING is BELIEVING. I SAW and BELIEVED. Its about TIME people WAKE UP and START taking NOTICE of all the SHIT that's BREWING around them.
FEIGNED IGNORANCE. SELF-INDUCED FITS. Come on, you guys can do MUCH better than THAT.
The WORLD's a STAGE, People are the ACTORS. And I WISHED I'm the GODDAMN DIRECTOR. Perhaps its GOOD to let GOD make the NECESSARY changes, RECTIFY our ERRORS and GUIDE us back on TRACK at times. FORGIVE us LORD for We have SINNED. make that TWICE. SINNED.
Trust and Obey for there's no other Way. but to Trust and Obey.
Let's END things with a TINGE of BITTERNESS. like BITTERDREAMs.

Go Fck Yourselves.

Baa Baa Black sheep, have you any woes?

Yes sir! Yes sir! 3 bags full.

One for the BASTARD

One for the BITCH

And One for the CONFUSED WHORE

that lives down the street.

(now that's what I call ORIGINALITY.)

Wanna know what makes LIFE INTERESTING?

its the GOOD, the BAD and the UGLY. (stop hiding.)
Let your private EMOtions come to ME.

Swarovski

2006-09-20T10:00:00.000-07:00

Diamonds AIN'T girl's BEST FRIEND, CRYSTALS are. I PROUDLY present to you, WILBERT SWAROVSKIX. its fckin GLAMOROUS for god's sake. I seriously don't UNDERSTAND why its ALWAYS SAKE? why NOT WINE? BEER? COCKTAIL? MOCKTAIL? why SAKE? Is HE a JAPANESE or WHAT? Who knows? Maybe HEAVEN's a GIANT SUSHI BAR. and we have SASHIMI in ABUNDANCE, for just this ONCE, DEATH seems WONDERFULLY APPEALING.
then AGAIN, where do all the OTHER races go to? Like the INDIANS and ALL. Malays are FINE i guess, cause SAKAE's HALAL. Okay, RACISM stops HERE.

Wah LIEW, its LIKE 4 weeks into my ATTACHMENT. And the funny thing is I'm kinda ENJOYING myself, Life in the OFFICE isn't that BAD after all, I mean I'm PRETTY sure, WORKING at Swarovski has its BENEFITS. so what if I'm only getting PAID a MEAGRE sum of $450/month? There are SOMETHINGs in LIFE that MONEY cannot BUY.

Speaking of WHICH, Imagine HAPPINESS can be bought, for example it is now SOLD in all DEPARTMENTAL STORES, whilst stock lasts. I'll still be the UNHAPPIEST person EVER. Imagine how much they would COST? Like let's say $1o,ooo/box? And if that's the CASE, GUYS stop FRETTING. I know what to do with the 50 grand. Let's get 5 boxes of HAPPINESS and LET ME HAVE IT. Instructions would go: Use SPARINGLY. Overdosage might cause UNDESIRABLE side effects like HIGH SEX DRIVE, UNCONTROLLABLE HIGHNESS, UNPREDICTABLE MOOD SWINGS and IRREGULAR PERIODS, (erm YES, for GUYS too.)
Not suitable for the DEPRESSED and SUICIAL, nothing's gonna CHANGE. Rest in PIECES.

There's this RANDOM song that's in MY HEAD now, its GOES:

It's the RED, WHITE and BLUE

Every FUNNY thing you do

Swarovski Swarovski

Is watching you

Life's too LONG. and things like this just makes it even LONGER

Think thoughts

2006-09-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

Hey PEEPS, this time around its gonna be a SHORT post, just a PHILOSOPHICAL and PSYCHOLOGICAL question for you all to PONDER over.
IMAGINE this:

One day, a Hurricane/Tornado hits Singapore, (I mentioned IMAGINE, so don't ARGUE with me, "Eh, Singapore SAFE from NATURAL DISASTER.") and so HAPPENED you are able to ESCAPE on WHEELS, (God knows WHY, you SHOULD have DIED down there.) As you were FLEEING from the WRETCHED fate of DEATH, a BUS STOP came into SIGHT. At the BUS STOP, (yeah you guessed it.) there was a DYING OLD WOMAN, YOUR BEST FRIEND for the past 18 years of your life (and you start to wonder why is that BASTARD/BITCH always at the WRONG place at the WRONG time), and the GIRL/BOY of your DREAMS.
As you were driving a 2 seater, who would you TAKE with you?
(its FOREVER has to be "save ONE and the REST DIE" kinda situation, see how SICK and TWISTED people have become?)

Anyway, Do WORK those DORMENT BRAIN cells and SPARE some THOUGHTs for the Question. I was BROWSING through my Emails, that's when I stumbled upon this. It kinda APPEALed to me so I decided to SHARE with you PEOPLE, so APPRECIATE it.
Just for your GENERAL KNOWLEDGE, a HURRICANE BLOWs, while a TORNADO SUCKs, they ain't the SAME. and I mean that in a PROPER and DECENT manner.

And now for the Analysis and Explanation of your Answers. All of the characters are PERSONIFIED in a SENSE, some kinda LITERATURE stuff. Each of them REPRESENTs something about you.
DYING OLD WOMAN - Your Life, depicting your life experience and all
BEST FRIEND - the HIMBO/BIMBO you SHARED all your WOEs and JOY with, its always WOEs with the S and only A ONE SINGLE JOY.
BOY/GIRL of your DREAMS - Needless to say, the BESTEST person you can ever have, WALKING with you By Your SIDE, All the WAY.
Your Answer simply tells you how MUCH Each means to you.

I'll hand over my car keys to my BEST FRIEND, let him DRIVE the OLD LADY to the HOSPITAL, and STAY with the GIRL of my DREAMS. after ALL, she's the GIRL of my DREAMS right?
Over Indulgence of the Broken Hearted.

Fishing Theory

2006-09-16T06:15:00.000-07:00

Its good to see you guys AGAIN. I guess.
Okay, I'm just kidding. Then again maybe not. =)
First of all, let's all RISE and RECEIVE our BELOVED illustrator with a STANDING OVATION. Given the FACT that she SURVIVED through CAMP and is CURRENTLY BACK and ALIVE, once again INJECTING LIFE into my BLOG. As the saying goes," a PICTURE tells a THOUSAND words." In SHORT, no matter how MUCH I write, its NEVER EVER gonna be as SUBSTENTIAL as a SINGLE Image by BabySann. For that I'm GRATEFUL for her. However, that's TOTALLY beside the POINT, cause you PEOPLE are STILL going to SIT there in front of your COMPUTER/LAPTOP/TYPEWRITER and READ through my ENTRIES anyway.

Let's get STARTED.
Is the ANYONE out there in the CROWD that's a FISHERMAN'S FRIEND?
As in LITERALLY, Strictly Nothing to do with MINTS or LOZENGES. Well, I don't ACTUALLY mean that FISHERMEN don't ENJOY having FISHERMAN's FRIEND, I'm sure at least SOME of them DO.
As I was saying, I know a NUMBER of FISHERMEN among my FRIENDS, Boy, do they LOVE FISHING! Enthusiaists I would say.It's so INTERESTING, even ENTERTAINING to just WATCH and OBSERVE them in ACTION. From the BASICS like DECIDING on the HUNT, SELECTING the BAIT, then the WAIT, up to their very own SIGNATURE finishing moves, its how they DISTINGUISH themselves from One Another. Some adopts the SOFT approach, while Some prefer a slightly more AGGRESSIVE approach. Whatever it is, I learnt that the MOST CRUCIAL STEP on the entire PROCESS was SELECTING the BAIT. Fisherman have to possess SUFFICE knowledge of the FISH before he's able to OPT for the BEST choice of BAIT for the FISH. Wrong BAIT simply means NO FISH, FURTILE efforts and UTTER DISAPPOINTMENT.
Apparently, the WAIT is the MOST AGONIZING of it ALL. PRAYING and HOPING FERVENTLY for the FISH to TAKE the BAIT. Many RATTLED on and on about how it takes GREAT PATIENCE and TESTs the FAITH of even the STRONG WILLED. Indeed, I've SEEN MANY who were FASTER in FORFEITING the WAIT instead of PERSERVERING.
Then again, the level of FISHERMEN out there in the OPEN SEAs, brimming with ABUNDANCE of OPPORTUNITIES, VARIES vastly, be it EXPERIENCE or SKILL wise. You'll be SURPRISED to SEE HOW much MORE successful some are, as COMPARED to the REST.
Oh and did I forget to MENTION, FISHING is a SPORT getting POPULAR among WOMEN NOWADAYS.
Players with all to gain, Stayers with nothing but shame.

1 2 3 4 5

Once I caught a fish alive

6 7 8 9 10

Then I let it go again

Why did you let it go?

Because it bit my finger so.

Which finger did it bite?

The MIDDLEFINGER on the right.

Was there even a strikeONE to begin with?

Anger management.

2006-09-13T10:40:00.000-07:00

Dudes and Dudettes, I'm gonna WRITE an ANGRY ENTRY today. I've NEVER really VENTURED into that GENRE before, thus I'm not really SURE about HOW does it go about? I mean although its HIGHLY RECOMMENDED to seek ADVICE and HELP from PROFESSIONAL ANGRY bloggers with SUICIDAL or SELF MUTILATION TENDENCIES, but apparently that's NO such individual AVAILABLE at the MOMENT.
Okay, I'm NOT that ANGRY. Just feel like Suffocating somebody, before Busting his HEAD open, then Setting him ALIGHT. Nothing MUCH. One reason why they should BAN Gore and Violence nowadays.
After ALL that's HAPPENING and REOCCURING, I feel that I'm STARTING to CRACK under the TREMENDOUS PRESSURE that's SLOWLY accumulating. Almost INHUMANE, but I'm CONSOLED to SEE that I'm not the ONLY ONE. Many others have already SNAPPED. This time around, I'm WALKING away.
Speaking of which, in any case, WORKING individuals out there, have you all ever NOTICED that the OFFICE is like an ADULT PLAYGROUND. Its INTERESTING to just PAY ATTENTION to all that OFFICE POLITICS, it NEVER FAILS to AMAZE. Just when you thought that GOSSIP MONGERS, BACK STABBERS, BOOT LICKERS, SWEET TALKERS, ACTORS only EXISTS in SCHOOLs, the WORKPLACE is SATURATED with ALL of the ABOVE. Especially if its a FEMALE working environment.
TRICIA mentioned before its INEVITABLE, its a CATS eat CATS world out there. Its either DO or DIE. You guessed it, She's hella a MEAN BITCH to SOME. She's NICE at least to ME. Often we would LEAVE and TAKE a BREAK from that HELLHOLE for a BREATHER. Attachment AIN'T that BAD with HER around. She's my BOSS by the way, except for the fact that she doesn't BEHAVE like ONE.
Just about TIME, Something's TRYING to GET OUT, GOD knows WHAT.
Emo's the WORD, my LATEST ADDICTION as well.

Time to Go, Chee-BYE.

Take away my Anxiety
Paranoid have brought me to my knees

I'm breaking free. finally.

=)

2006-09-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

If you've NOTICED, my posts are like SHRINKING. Getting SHORTER and SHORTER as the time goes by. I don't really have much to CONVEY nowadays, I just keep RANTING, GRUNTING, SNORTING about how FCKED UP my life is and all, its getting BORING isn't it? Perhaps a CHANGE would be GOOD.
Well, I'll TRY. Its gonna be REAL HARD to ADJUST to it, considering the FACT that I've been EMOing 8 out of 7 days a WEEK for the past MONTHS or SO. Its like I should STOP blogging at night or something, ITS ALWAYS at NIGHT when the COLD and SOLITUDE gets to you, leaving you feeling so ever VULNERABLE and LONELY. That's when ALL the NEGATIVE EMOtions OVERWHELM and ENGULF you, and cause you to START WALLOWING in SELF PITY. Just when you thought it was ALL OVER, it HITS you RIGHT in the FACE AGAIN. WHAM! and you find yourself CRYING to SLEEP, WAKING up in the morning, CONVINCING yourself that you're ALRIGHT, only to FIND the CYCLE repeating as the DAY goes by.
Seriously SICK of the FEELING, and FEELING seriously SICK as well.
Here's some FOOD for THOUGHT. in MY case KNOWN as INGENUITY and PHILOSOPHY COMPLEXITY. get?
What's the MEANING of your EXISTANCE? fcking CLICHE. so WHAT? I can't THINK of any SENSIBLE shit to CRAP about NOW. Its like in the WEE hours of the MORNING, and YOU guys so ALL take a PISS in the TOILET.
In SHORT, My "BEING" becomes RECOGNIZABLE and EXISTS through the REACTIONS of OTHERS. If I see that I am LOVED, NEEDED or RESPECTED, I know I EXIST. Simple? However, the VOID, which is also the "Not to be", is only POSSIBLE to RECOGNIZE by NOT observing what others feel and say.
Just when it all START to MAKE SENSE, now there YOU are CONFUSED like a LOST SHEEP.

Its LATE, Time to go to BED.

Nobody said it feels so good
Nobody told me it'll be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
For I love not too wisely but too well.

And why did it even HAPPEN?!

2006-09-09T12:49:00.000-07:00

Feeling kinda PUZZFUCKLED, I managed to CONVINCE myself its the DOING of some 5 year old KID, who LINKED to my BLOG via some PORNOGRAPHIC or FETISH website, so I think I'm gonna let it PASS. "Run along now, Go back to MUMMY." It'd better STOP there and then.

Okay, as a RESPONSE to Ter and the 11 others who joined me in the CINEMA. and to you READERS as well.
PULSE is a HELL of a SHOW. It brings HORROR movies to new HEIGHTS. It gives FEAR a new DEFINITION, like bringing it to another LEVEL. Definitely a MUST WATCH for THRILL SEEKERS, not recommended for the WEAK HEARTED.
All and all, LOOK on the BRIGHTER side, it BONDED us ALL, I think. The Sick, The Ugly, The Beautiful, The Emos, The Loving, The Aged, The Dieting, The Act Dieting, and last but not least, The Other Race. Not that BAD a thing worth paying $9.50 for, RIGHT?
Anyway, THANKS guys for BELIEVING in ME. I really APPRECIATE it. I felt LOVED. TRULY.

Love is cold

Love is unkind

Like the Selfish lead the Blind.

What took me 6 months, took you only 3 weeks. I miss those times.

I followed my HEART

and EVENTUALLY got myself a ONE-WAY ticket to the DEVIL's pocket.

(Hidden Truth and Lil Secrets. fuckit.)

LOVE me. KILL me. EMOed. Again.

FRESHIED.

2006-09-07T10:48:00.000-07:00

Hi FRIENDS and FRESHIES, I see some of you have managed to STUMBLE upon my HUMBLE BLOG aye? It's not that I have a personal AGENDA against any INDIVIDUAL, but please allow me time to ADJUST to the SUDDEN INFLUX of YOUNG READERS. All and all, I'm GLAD to WELCOME all of you BABES and BABETTES here, really very DELIGHTED. Besides, its not only ME, there's also the rest of the GANG, like SARAH, NEXA, PEYCHEE, PEIYI, XIAOTING, SHIRLEY, JENying, QIANX, XF, TER, FRED, XIANG and the LIST goes on FOREVER. (RANDOM names here, NO ORDER of PREFERENCE.) right GUYS?

For you FIRST TIMERS to my BLOG, Congrats on your VIRGIN visit. Still, I would like to go through the IMPORTANT PRINCIPLE that STANDS when READING my BLOG.
DON'T ASSUME when it comes to my POSTS, ASSUMPTIONS breed the SHITTIEST SHIT of EARTH. Another thing IF you THINK you UNDERSTAND, CHANCES are you are EITHER WRONG or WRONG, so THINK AGAIN. Other than that, although CONSTRUCTIVE comments are ENCOURAGED, don't bother TAGGING about them cause they most prpbably won't make SENSE to ME at all. =)

Okay that's all for the SHORT introduction cum WELCOME note. And I even thought of starting things of on a LIGHTER NOTE. Okay, let's SEE what I have for you FRESHIES, something LIGHT to CHEW and DIGEST on I hope.
I came across ONE of the MOST RIDICULOUS phrase ever TODAY.

SMILE, and the WORLD SMILES back.

Whoever thought of this sure has a serious MISCONCEPTION about how this WORLD functions, its a GODDAMN TABOO to even say such things NOWADAYS. Everyone has their own PROBLEMS, SLUGS have HOUSING problems, FIREFLIES have LIGHTING problems, FROGS have SERIOUS HICCUPS that'll never go away, VAMPIRES have TEETHING problems. Who has the time to SMILE in the FIRST place, lest say to SMILE back? A Smile uses only 14 muscles, almost EFFORTLESS in a way, thus its is OFTEN ABUSED. A MILLION and ONE ways, you NAME it. And you even think that HE or SHE is INTERESTED in you, its just a SWEETER way of REJECTION. Ironically as it seems, SMILING is my FORTE.

Last but not least, SARAH, aka BABYSANN is the OFFICIAL ILLUSTRATOR of my BLOG, ANY of her WORKS seen ELSEWHERE are ILLEGALLY COPIED without PERMISSION, and simply deemed to be IMPERSONATED with NO TINGE of CREATIVITY. period. Speaking of which, I missed mine last month.

The scars remind us that the pain is real,

I tear my HEART open just to feel.

lil NEXA.

2006-09-06T09:44:00.000-07:00

Dedicated to my BELOVED lil sis.

Small and miniature she might seem,

Remember what Mum always said about how Looks deceive?

Cute and adorable I must admit,

Yet flamboyant are her ideaology that she preach.

Innocent and gullible she often misleads,

Dark are the secrets she inhibits.

Green tea ice cream her recent craves,

Like the good old ENERGY days.

Still, matters of the heart her questions undefined,

Cruel were the answers arrived in due time.

Emotions that she fought desperately just to hide,

Manifested many a times by her cheekside.

Beautiful dreams she once kept in her heart,

Pains even me to witness them all come apart.

Glimpse of hope she now holds dear,

Come what may she prays in fear.

Then again what good is there?

When nobody even understand.

Like you were in times of despair,

This I promise you, "I'll always be there."

With much LOVE,

Wil

Too much words left unsaid

Too much deeds left undone

All have heard and spoken except for just one.

Whats the word again?

2006-09-01T10:42:00.000-07:00

I swear ATTACHMENT is the WRONGEST thing that could HAPPEN to somebody, to ME at least. for you IGNORANT twerps that are OBLIVIOUS to WHERE I'm ATTACHED to and STUFF, please go HUMP a POSTBOX or something. its SWAROSKI for HEAVEN's SAKE, and its AUSTRIAN, not fcking GERMAN. okay HERE's a LIL write-up about the COMPANY, SWAROSKI = CRYSTALS, CRYSTALS = SWAROSKI. When I say CRYSTALS, I really mean CRYSTALS of all KINDS, ranging from jewelleries to home decors, you NAME it. The ENTIRE shopfront SHIMMERS. literally. Thats so MUCH for the BENEFITS of working at SWAROSKI.

After BLOG-HOPPING, SKIPPING, RANDOMING, (whatever they CALLED it.) several BLOGS, I had this INSURGENT URGE to COMMENT, to VOICE out, its like I have to SAY SOMETHING about EVERYTHING. Everybody seems to have their lil EXPLANATION and OPINIONS about INCIDENTS and EVENTS taking place in their LIFE. You see the point is EVERYONE's so CAUGHT UP in their OWN lil PROBLEMS in the OWN lil WORLD, that they NO LONGER see what's going on around them. As the saying goes, IGNORANCE is BLISS.

Listen to this. Take it as my CONCLUSION to the MILLIONS of PROBABLE ANALYSIS. and please do take it with an OPEN MIND and be RECEPTIVE. Okay this is to REMIND my READERS that I'm not turning PHILOSOPHICAL or anything. Don't worry, I'm still the REAL ME. just wanna help in CLEARING some DOUBTS if possbile. Basically, Reality is what we make it to be. Our perceptions creates our truth, therefore there must be DIFFERENT truths.
I'm not saying NONE of you are CORRECT, neither claiming that you are WRONG either. The WORD here is PERCEPTIONS, as much as I would like to DEFINE perceptions, its similar to FEELINGS, INDEFINITE.

Understanding another's PERCEPTION can be as TAXING and FURTILE as COMPREHENDING the HEART. It requires much PATIENCE and EFFORT, reason being, however ILLOGICAL and SENSELESS his/her TRUTH might seemed to you, its is definitely something he/she BELIEVES in and STAND STEADFAST by. So everytime before you STEREOTYPE or CONDEMN somebody else's MENTALITY, THINK again.

Welcome to Wil's shades of grey. ENJOY.
What an EYESORE.

Now its time to face the TRUTH, I can never be with you.

HATE.

2006-08-30T09:52:00.000-07:00

Another summer day

Is come and gone away

In Paris and Rome

But I wanna go home

Maybe surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two

“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life

It’s like I just stepped outside

When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not

Come along with me

But this was not your dream

But you always believe in me

Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m done

I gotta go home

Let me go home

It will all right

I’ll be home tonight

I’m coming back home

A fcking EMOPE song, that's EMO plus DOPE for your info. When LOVE vanishes, SORROW takes over, its like this INEVITABLE force of nature. During this TRANSITION phase, the HEART experiences TURBULENCE, so much so that its SUFFOCATES and it feels like its being RIPPED APART. CHEERS for those who fought through it, my SYMPATHY for those who LOST in the STRUGGLE, for me right now, 3 words, HELL FROZE OVER.

I really wanna APOLOGISE to all my READERS out there, I was thinking PERHAPS all the philosophical HEART stuff was NOTHING, but BULLSHIT. It wasn't INTENTIONAL for me to MISLEAD you all or anything. Everything just came together and MAKE SENSE all out of a SUDDEN. There's NO definition for FEELINGS. NOBODY can ever explain or demostrate the MEANING of EMOTIONS. LOVE to me might be totally DIFFERENT as compared to LOVE to you. Same for ANGER, HAPPINESS and all. What I do understand its that PEOPLE are SUPERFICIAL. Perhaps it was NEVER about the HEART, its EVERYTHING on the OUTSIDE that really matters, isn't it?

IRONIC it seems, LOVE wasn't supposed to EXIST. GOD created EVE from ADAM's RIB BONE, there wasn't any LOVE for each other, they just happened to COEXIST in the SAME ENVIRONMENT. After GOD exiled both of them away from EDEN's GARDEN when they SINNED, they stuck together because they had NO other choices but each other, there ISN'T any LOVE. Blessed are those who LOVED, for they will be LOVED in return.

Whats this feeling that's swelling inside of me?

A lil blood won't kill,

its YOU that will.

URGENT matters.

2006-08-25T10:43:00.000-07:00

WHATS UP people? How have you all been DOING?
YEA YEAH. I'm back. Please don't be overly EXCITED. Examinations ENDED and its kinda FCKED up. so let's just DROP the SUBJECTS and PRETEND it NEVER happened.

To start things up a LITTLE bit, perhaps SOMEONE can answer me 2 of MY MOST PRESSING questions in my HEAD right NOW. First WHY is a RESTROOM called a RESTROOM? Like do you see PEOPLE even WALKING in HANG around for a minute or two before WALKING back out saying, "GOD, that felt GOOD!" Shit NO. UNLESS, they have been RELIEVING themselves, you know what I MEAN. that EXPLAINS all the RANDOM spots of GRAFFITI on the WALLS of the CUBICLES, the COLOUR simply tells US how LONG has it been since the ARTIST created that MASTERPIECE. seriously its GROSSIEST and most DISGUSTING shit EVER. not FORGETTING the PUNGENT stench, its NOT AROMA THERAPY for GOD's sake, OKAY let's not even go THERE.

Secondly, WHY is the RESTROOM always WET? Like EVERYWHERE. the TABLETOP is WET, the SEATS are WET, PUDDLES everywhere, and even the CEILING DRIPS. its like there's a ALL YEAR ROUND MONSOON season in there or something. I mean there's NO WAY its the CAUSE of LOUSY PLUMBING. its just HOW we PEOPLE uses IT. NOTICE such OCCURANCES only happen in PUBLIC RESTROOMS? What's MORE, People have become SO DAMN IGNORANT that they DON'T bother AIMING anymore, STOP pointing FINGERS, its NOT just GUYS, even LADIES as well. I even HEARD they don't BOTHER sitting anymore, BLAMING the DIRTY SEATS. And WE even wonder WHO was the ONE who DIRTIED it in the first PLACE.

If that wasn't SURFEITING enough, LISTEN to THIS. guess WHAT I saw in ONE of the CUBICLEs in a MALE RESTROOM. its a FCKING USED SANITARY PAD stuck onto the FLUSH button. THIS IS INSANITY. I am SPEECHLESS, my DINNER almost CAME out THROUGH my GODDAMN mouth. HOW do you expect PEOPLE to FLUSH with such an ARTIFECT obstructing the way? And WHY is it even THERE in the FIRST PLACE? OKAY GAYS are getting POPULAR, soon BEING the IN thing, so I guess we should get use to SEEING PADs in RESTROOMS. I mean SOME people REALLY are REALLY SUCCESSFUL in CONVINCING themselves that they actually NEED one. But then again CAN SHIT like that HAPPEN?

The TWISTED minds of PEOPLE is KILLING the WORLD. DEGRADING I say. COME ON, DO SOMETHING, at least EXPRESS your VIEWS and OPINIONS, EXTEND the MIDDLEFINGER at least.
Speaking out which, anybody EVER thought WHY does it have to be the MIDDLEFINGER?

And I still feel that LOVE sucks.

Like the BOSS's coffee without SUGAR,

I hope I can DILUTE you.

And know you BETTER.

Happy Sharing.

2006-08-22T08:13:00.000-07:00

HARLOW peeps. Been WAITING huh? Sorry to keep ya ALL waiting. had to deal with the UPCOMING examinations and ALL. Yea yea. the USUALs. WHATEVER it is, I'm here, talking, writing to you.
Someone just happened to share with me a STORY today, I felt it was something that kinda INTERESTING in a way actually, so DECIDED to BLOG about it so that you PEOPLE might get to THINK about A THING or TWO.

It's ABOUT 2 guys and a GIRL. it's NOT your TYPICAL love triangle CRAP. so PAY ATTENTION okay? They kinda SHARED the LADY, to make things SIMPLE, they were having the SAME GIRLFRIEND. and before YOU SMARTIES jump to CONCLUSION, all 3 of them KNEW what was HAPPENING. and ASTONISHINGLY this carried on for 2 years. The simple REASON, the girl's CONFUSED and obviously CAUGHT UP between the 2 of them.

Interesting what LOVE do to people, some of you out there might feel that these 2 guys are the DUMBEST DUMB in DUMB DUMB history, WHO in the RIGHT MIND would WILLINGLY be a SUBSTITUTE to some other? but COME to THINK of it, would you?
We GUYS maybe JERKS or even REDUNDANT creatures of EXISTANCE to many of you GIRLS, but have you ever thought that there's the OTHERSIDE of us that are SENTIMENTAL, SWEET and ALL? it's just that we don't SHOW it that OFTEN, then AGAIN it DOESN'T mean that we are that STRONG and INDEPENDENT. Guys don't go to EACH OTHER and WHINE and RANT about how much they MISS that SPECIAL her and STUFF, its deemed to be GAY, at the END of the DAY, we still NEED someone who would LISTEN to our HEART.
For ME, I'm FORTUNATE enough to have LIL NEXA, but there are MANY who really are at LOST of A LISTENING EAR. That AIN'T alot to ASK FOR, is it? COME on, you've got 2 of it. Just lend the POOR GUY ONE.

Okay, now you're gonna say WE say the DARNEST thing ALL THE TIME, and US being SO EMOTIONAL and MUSHY just kinda PUTS YOU OFF. Ladies, we really need your ENCOURAGEMENT please? IF not, by ALL MEANS, tell yourself to be REALLY NICE for TODAY and BE RECEPTIVE to what he's gotta SAY, it would DEFINITELY HELP. Seriously, when we say something, we REALLY MEAN IT, (although there are SOBs out there who are LYING through their FREAKIN' TEETH.) and you've NO IDEA how HARD it takes for US to even VOICE it out. At times when you all just don't seem to UNDERSTAND, we JUST wanna BEAR a HOLE through our CHEST, PLONK the HEART out and let you FEEL it, LITERALLY.

And do you KNOW how DIFFICULT it is just for US to MEAN something to you GIRLS? We might even END up doing the STUPIDIEST thing EVER, and not even a LOOK from YOU. Even in the END, when we STEP into your HEART, a HUGE SIGN that GREETED us reads "Currently Occupied by 2 other users, nevertheless make yourself at HOME."

Like you and me,
Expressions are supposed to be free.

Wordies.

2006-08-20T09:19:00.000-07:00

As promised, I got back to you all as SOON as I finished up with the MATTERS of the HEART, actually it's not really completely FINISHED. I mean this kinda stuff can never be totally RESOLVED right? If it could be, there WOULDN'T be SO MANY EMOman, EMOlady, EMOkids and EMObabies AROUND. so let's just say it ACCIDENTALLY SLIPPED to one corner of my MIND. i bet you guys are SERIOUSLY missing the CORNY ME, ain't I right? Come on, just say YES! CONFESS.

There's SOMETHING I kinda observed, and actually is quite PUZZLED by it. Can ANYONE of you please TELL me why do PEOPLE with BAD BREATH are the one the ENJOY telling SECRETS? notice how they LOVE coming UP so CLOSE to you that you are STRUGGLING to BREATHE, and how the HECK do you EVEN CONCENTRATE on whatever he or she is saying? to TOP it off, MOST of the time, People with BAD BREATH do not know it themselves. GREAT! my FRIEND and I have a SERIOUS communication PROBLEM. a BARRIER in fact. and apparently I'm the only one SUFFERING from it, and he's totally OBLIVIOUS to it. In such PERIL situations, MINTS are LIFE SAVERS. just offer it to your friend. IF he don't get the HINT, and REJECTS it. INSIST. and POP the FREAKIN MINT into his HELLHOLE. And GENTLY remind him to STOP having CORPSES for BREAKFAST.

Apart from that, there's ANOTHER question I would like to have it EXPLAINED, has ANYBODY ever wondered why is LOVE a four-letter word? whatever it is, I guess it's pretty FCKED up to fall in LOVE, as LIL NEXA and I have AGREED. the BRAIN and the HEART works INDEPENDENTLY. Thus, from this, its OBVIOUS that LOVE is something TOTALLY ILLOGICAL, UNEXPLANATORY and INDESCRIBABLE. You cannot UNDERSTAND love, but only FEEL it. GET? STOP asking WHY somebody loves somebody. BECAUSE he or she most probably DON'T KNOW the REASON as much as you DO. Come on, if you LOVE the other party, because of some SUPERFICIAL reason like GOSH he's SO DAMN CUTE! or she's SO HOT she LIGHT my TORTILLAs ON FIRE. that isn't LOVE you GOONS. its just an INFATUATION.

Love her for what she is,

Not what you hope she would be.

Lock the doors. Leave the WORLD outside. and listen to my HEARTbeat.

Credits once again to BABYSANN. its the CHEMISTRY that's why.

Black humor.

2006-08-19T19:32:00.000-07:00

My BELOVED readers, please bear with me for this last entry.
Which is dedicated to HER and HER only.
Those who are not INTERESTED can jolly well look away, for this is what I have to say.

You ain't to be blame for all this pain

Don't ever hold yourself responsible for this that's driving me insane

Who was I to even expect anything in the first place

Especially there's already someone you feel for in a very special way

I wished the bestfriend thing could be a lie

And I'm just another passing guy

Perhaps things would turn out better

Or maybe not it doesn't really matter

Many a times denial seems to be the apparent option

Yet I chose confrontation

Ironic it seems it hurts to feel your care

Still I wish that you could be there

At times when the world seems so dark and grey

And I can't see the dawn of the coming day

However truth may seem cold and unkind

I know clearly my love is not blind

I pray to God above in the skies

To grant me the courage once again to look into your beautiful eyes

What's done cannot be undone

What's said cannot be unsaid

Let's put on our masks

And dance in the grandeur masquerade

Maybe it's just me. That's why.

A one-way traffic all along.

I wished it all never started.

Would there still be a rewritten ending?

Last but not least.

Te amo

My only sunshine.

2006-08-19T08:13:00.000-07:00

I'm back AGAIN, as usual. as often. and as CRAPPY.
I'll try not to be EMO for this once, since a COUPLE of you guys are COMMENTING on how I should not my MOOD affect the way i BLOG. seriously its like WHAT THE HELL. it's MY BLOG and I've have SIMPLY no IDEA why am I letting you PEOPLE DICTATE the way MY ENTRIES should be.

To start things off a LIL bit. Have you GUYS and GUYETTES, ever thought of what ZeBRAs really are? They're got to be the MOST EROTIC and SENSUAL mammals in the ENTIRE animal KINGDOM. Ze BRAs actually meant THE BRASSAIRE in FRENCH? I know its pretty DUMB for me to put it in such a way, and by the way I am not in ANY FORM of HORNINESS.
but OF COURSE, ZeBRAs sound WAY NICER than ZePANTIEs. whoever NAMED them is NO DOUBT a HORNY FRENCH dude DOING them a GREAT FAVOUR. Imagine PARENTS telling their LIL kids at the ZOO. "Hey, look at the LARGE ZePANTIEs!" God, that sounds TERRIBLE and totally UNKEMPT.

Enough of all that LINGERIE terms and SHIT, I DO NOT wanna be the NEXT SEX ICON, its NOT that I do not have WHAT it TAKES, but I just don't ENJOY having that MUCH attention in that kinda MANNER. but can SOMEONE please answer me. HOW DO PORN STARS manage to PULL that KINDA SHIT of with all the LIGHTINGs and CAMERAs in their FACES? ain't this kind of stuff be EXECUTED in PRIVACY and preferably in the DARK? its not that there ain't ANY NIGHT MODE functions in CAMERAs.

okay okay. I REALLY MUST STOP HERE. before PARENTS ban their KIDS from READING my BLOG. oh YA. NEXA, you really shouldn't be reading this, you're too YOUNG for this, its TOO EXPLICIT. I really apologise for NEGLECTING your PRESENCE. but THEN again, I don't think I'm the ONLY ONE neglecting it. SO WHATEVER.

Ok now to INTRODUCE once again to the PICTURE contributed by my VERY OWN ILLUSTRATOR, BABYSANN.
Come on, SHE's the BEST around, so don't envyME. =)
She TRULY depicts my FEELINGs, my TRUE confession. for that I'm GRATEFUL. so should you. I MEAN it. EVERY WORD I SAY, SAID, WILL BE SAYING.

You are MY SUNSHINE.
My ONLY SUNSHINE.

In the END.

2006-08-18T04:38:00.000-07:00

MY LAST EVER EMO POST. i swear. crosses fingers.
by the way OLD BOYS never DIE, they become LEGENDS.

I looked for the sun but its raining today.

I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like I was there, heaven in the skies
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel

Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I adore you with my heart, really and truly
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks my soul and tears me apart

I wore a disguise cause I didn't want to get hurt
But I didn't know I made everything worse
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying
Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying

I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we'll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

fuckit. I didn't wanna be depressed, this I confess.
and CREDITS to BABYSANN, for the lovely comic.

Bloody business.

2006-08-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

Ever wondered why have I been BLOGGING ever so FREQUENTLY these few days? To think you BOYS and BOYETTES even BELIEVE that its for all of your READING PLEASURE. Please kindly allow me to ENLIGHTEN you. LIFE's been a REAL BITCH to ME so FAR. It's like I'm on a GODDAMN rollercoaster ride, you know those which just KEEPS going ON and ON, till you're like "OKAY! now where's the FCKIN' STOP button?!" And I swear I'm gonna KICK whoever ASS, DONKEY, MULE, who asks me to GO GETALIFE (card). I seriously NEED to TALK to my LIFE. can SOMEONE or THING please tell me what's GOING ON around here? ALL my friends have pretty much GONE through the BOOKS BURIAL INITIATION, and I'm the ONLY one TRYING to RESIST it. There's SOMETHING even more SINISTER than the EMOnster in OUR midst. The MUGGERETARD, I bet NONE of you have the SLIGHTEST idea about it, cause NOBODY ever saw it coming until its TOO LATE.

BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS. must READ. must STUDY. must DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO SCORE THE HIGHEST. (this includes DENYING to share NOTES, UNWILLINGNESS to guide, RELUCTANCE to provide assistance. ME. MYSELF. I. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH...)

Damn SCARY huh? see what IT can do to you? it TURN friends on each other. Or perhaps YOU guys ain't really friends in the BEGINNING at all. It's just MAKING USE of one another. Let's LOOK on the BRIGHT side IF there's even ANY to start with. okay MAYBE there's just ONE. after the EXAMINATIONS, everybody goes back to their USUAL self. So life's BEAUTIFUL on the SURFACE again.

ENOUGH of SCHOOL and PAPERS. back to LIFE. that BITCH. ever felt so DEPRESSED that you wanted to KILL youself? Come on, that's PROBABLY what LIFE wants. And you wanna just GIVE IN to IT after all that SHIT it put you through? How DUMB can you get? And for those who started CUTTING themselves recently, SHEDDING blood ain't REALLY worth it either. Speaking of BLOOD, lil NEXA was in a TERRIFIC state of MIND yesterday, she had this INSPIRATION and RANDOMLY came up with this PHRASE. Well, at least I can RELATE to it.

BLOOD won't KILL,
its YOU that WILL.

Remedy for lovesick.

2006-08-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

This time round, I'm gonna have my first ever CHINESE entry. Pretty COOL huh? for you POTATOES EATING MONOlingual BASTARDS, I'm NOT sorry for you not being able to COMPREHEND a SINGLE character that's posted, so MUCH for treating CHINESE characters as some kinda CAVEMAN drawing when you're in PRESCHOOL learning them.

And for THOSE who are seeing FUNNY FUNNY SYMBOLS running all across the screen, please remain SEATED and CALM. And OBEY the INSTRUCTIONS as follows, to make it an IDIOT-PROOF manual. I've decided to break it down STEP by STEP.

1) Bring your cursor SLOWLY over to the word "VIEW" at the top of your INTERNET EXPLORER. (this is a painfully DELICATE process and has to be executed with extreme CAUTION to prevent any WRIST injuries.)

2) Click on the button to activate a DROP DOWN menu. (exercising the RIGHT amount of strength on the mouse button is the CRUCIAL key to the SUCCESS of this step.)

3) Good job so far on reaching the 3rd step. Now, I want you to SCROLL DOWN to the option "Encoding", from there kindly select the "Unicode (UTF-8)" and it is COMPLETE.

From now on, CHEERIOS to those who are able to APPRECIATE and ENJOY the PROFOUNDNESS as well as BEAUTY of this POST. Nevertheless, don't FRET Potatoeheads, a new entry would be up any time SOON. It's not the END of the world, so no point trying to STAB or CUT yourself. AND for those who decided NOT to COME BACK ANYMORE, guess what. I DON'T REALLY CARE. Meanwhile, may I PROUDLY present to you.

5歲的時候，我說我愛你. 你歪著腦袋，眨著水晶般的大眼睛，疑惑地問我："什麼意思？"

15歲的時候，我說我愛你，你的臉紅得像火燒，頭深深地低著，擺弄著衣襟，你好像在笑。

20歲的時候，我說我愛你，你把頭靠在我的肩上，緊緊地挽住我的手臂，像是下一秒我就要消失一樣。

25歲的時候，我說我愛你，你把早餐放在桌上，跑過來刮了一下我的鼻子說: "知道了！懶蟲，該起床了!"

30歲的時候，我說我愛你，你笑著說："你呀！要是真的愛我，就別下了班到處跑，還有，別再忘了我叫你買的菜!"

40歲的時候，我說我愛你，你邊收拾碗筷邊無表情的嘟囔著： "行了，行了，快去給孩子復習功課去吧！"

50歲的時候，我說我愛你，你打著毛活頭也不抬："真的？你心里是不是巴不得我早點兒死掉。" 然後就咯咯咯地笑個不停。

60歲的時候，我說我愛你，你笑著捶了我一拳： "死老頭子！孫子都這麼大了，還貪嘴!"

70歲的時候，我們坐在搖椅上，戴著老花鏡，欣賞著50年前我給你的情書，我們已經褶皺的手又握在了一起，那時侯我說我愛你，你深情地望著我，其實你那已經皺紋對壘的臉仍是那麼美麗...... 爐子上的開水咕嘟咕嘟地冒煙, 溫馨的暖意充滿了整個屋子........ ......

80歲的時候，你說你愛我. 我什麼也沒說，因為我流淚了，但是那是我人生最最快樂的日子，因為你終于說出了那句"我--愛--你"。

Short and sweet, I seriously don't really wanna wait that long for the 3 sweetest word in the UNIVERSE. =)

Soul searching

2006-08-15T20:41:00.000-07:00

Okay for the pleasure of you SICKOs out there. Emo entries can get REALLY ADDICTIVE. it just makes you wanna POST more and more and MORE of it, that you FINALLY lose yourself to the UNFORGIVING GRASP of the EMOnster. And once you get there, there's NO turning BACK. IT just keeps wanting more and MORE from you. Its just like this VOICE inside YOUR HEAD, " BLOG EMO, EAT EMO, LIVE EMO, PLAY EMO, TALK EMO........................................"

But nevertheless, I'm NOT going to be like you BUNCH of LOSERS who give in just like that. I'm making a STAND, say NO. (say. sAY. SAY! UFOOOO!) Do you guys know that HARD GAY ain't really GAY? He just has this SERIOUS fetish for LEATHER and an UNCONTROLLABLE URGE to SHAKE HIS HIPS in the MOST OBSCENE manner at the MOST INAPPROPRIATE places. But so WHAT? He has the BIGGEST fan base compared to MANY OTHERS who are working their ASSES of in the MEDIA industry. and TRUST me to say that IF Mr. HARD GAY was to release an OFFICIAL album, it would DEFINITELY be a TOTAL SELLOUT. and THAT's what I call DARES TO BE DIFFERENT.

DAMN! I'm just gooch at SIDETRACKING, by the way, I really wanna share with you people something, LAST NIGHT, I was RANSACKING through my HEART, believe me when I say IT's in a TOTAL MESS. I was trying to SORT out THE MESSIEST pile of SHIT EVER, like ANGER one side, GRIEVE in another corner, JOY was kinda SCARCE so I just chucked it ASIDE, then LOVE, if I ever recall, I threw it away but there it was somehow lying on the floor, I picked it up and decided to keep it for the time being. Then, I found something, a BOX with a LOCK, something like BOX-a-LOCK, or LOCK-a-BOX. (okay its CLICHE, but I bet NONE of you saw it COMING.) it was marked "SUPPRESSED EMOtions." and if SMART ALEXs think that "Oh he's gonna say that somebody has the key to that LOCK and he's gonna ask whoever it is to give it back, ooooohhhhh, HOW ORIGINAL!". the answer's NO. I have the KEY and guess what I found? I'm......... NOT TELLING! WHATEVER it is, IT DOESN'T matter ANY of YOU, ok perhaps only just one of you. But you see, this kind of things ain't SUPPOSED to be SHARED so OPENLY, and I have NO IDEA why am I even BLOGGING about it?! Take it as a REWARD for being a LOYAL reader of my BLOG then.

but SERIOUSLY, for many of you who are CONFUSED or UNCERTAIN about how your HEART's operating, perhaps its a pretty good idea to TAKE a LOOK in it once in a while, you'll be SUPRISED how CLUTTERED it is INSIDE, which explains why MANY THINGS that happened without any possible REASON, maybe its just a FEELING which you have been denying all along. For once MANY can be ENLIGHTENED by my BLOG, and not just LABEL it as LAME and NONSENSICAL.

For just this once, I hope that the WORLD can be a better place with LOVE.

Love thy NEIGHBOUR.

Confused. Totally.

2006-08-10T03:36:00.000-07:00

Today was the MOODiest day EVER. and I shall DECLARE it to be the MOODiest day in MOODY day HISTORY.
The sky was MOODY, I'm MOODY. Even the bread in the kitchen is MOODY, so much so that MOULD appeared on it.
Okay, perhaps it's just one of those days again. You know when things don't turn out the way you want it to be? and somehow or rather SHIT HAPPENs. speaking out which, some SERIOUS SHIT happened not long back. A COUPLE of my friends had some CLOSE ENCOUNTERS and ISSUES with SHIT. LITERALLY. One even came so CLOSE that he INHALED its STENCH, and described it as REFRESHING and THERAPEUTICAL for the BODY.

As I was saying, my MOODiness has taken a toll on me PSYCHOLOGICALLY, thus I have DECIDED after much LENGTHY DELIBERATIONS, that I shall have a EMO post for once. This doesn't mean that I'm gonna turn my BLOG into a EMOTICTWIST or whatever you call that. During the MEANTIME, please ENJOY and SAVOUR the NEW EXPERIENCE of my first ever EMO entry. Actually it isn't much of an EMO post, it just a STRING of RANDOM THOUGHTS I've EXPERIENCED after the MANIFESTATION of an ANGEL.

It took me some time to realise that the feelings weren't momentary,
Believe me on my part it was involuntary.
Moments we shared certainly were unforgettable,
Such strong feelings were undeniable,
Captivating are your alluring eyes,
Like how the stars embellish the azure night sky.
Sometimes I wish we could be more than just friends,
Perhaps someday you will understand.
Till then life goes on for you and me,
The bestest friend of yours I'll always be.

Well, that's the end. SHORT and SWEET. no bloody stuff like CUTTING of WRISTS. NO CURSING and SWEARING. Come on, what were you guys EXPECTING?

This is my shortest entry so far, I've already told you HIGHLY EMOtional creatures that I SUCK,(oh MAN, I miss I-si-ca-li-mo BADLY!), at writing stuff liddat. whatever it is, effort is put in NEVERTHELESS. so QUIT WHINING. Okay, perhaps I should thank you for trying to APPRECIATE. or maybe not, its YOU who chose to read my BLOG.

OKAY! FINE! THANKS ALRIGHT?! thanks for SUPPORTING me this FAR. I'm GRATEFUL. SERIOUSLY I AM. I wanna use this chance to thank my MUMMY and DADDY, cause without them, there's NO WILBERT. This getting overly MUSHY and HAIR RAISING...

=)

给我你的爱　让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱　手拉着手　不放开
就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸发
只愿你的记忆里　有我的拥抱...

Love makes the WORLD go CRAZY

2006-08-01T10:06:00.000-07:00

Welcome back!

You're just in time to join us for TEA or SUPPER. depending on what time are you reading this post of mine. My dear friend here is Pipi, she's a LOVE CUPID. and she's inspired by a very lovely and adorable close friend of mine. Okay, perhaps Pipi isn't like any other cupids, at least not the one that you CHILDISH KOOK. Fancy you STILL BELIEVING that CUPIDS are CORPULENT lil ANGELS with PYGMY wings, FLUTTERING around in the air.

I mean its NORMAL for people to have IMAGINARY friends right? Florence has BILLY, I mean its not only him but also the RANDOM soft toys around her that SPEAKS too. Terence has his CARTOONY friends, whom he claims to be able to CELEBRATE his birthday with him. IF you think that having IMAGINARY friends is WEIRD, there are EVEN WEIRDIER stuff that's going on in the WORLD. I have BALLS that BITCHES, BITCHES that pretend to have BALLS. you know stuff along that line.

Have you ever HEARD of CRAZY in LOVE? I have a lil SIS who I am CONVINCED to be DEEPLY INFATUATED with a GUY. it all STARTED when she ACCIDENTALLY took notice of him at some event and stuff. and then the TRIGGER to the CHAIN of REACTIONS was pulled. SIGNS of LOVASTY, LOVESTATIC, LOVATION. LOVOLOGY can be OBSERVED, listed are only few of the MINOR observation I have obtained from my MONTHS of STUDY. My experiment would be named SUBJECT, and the STIMULANT would be OBJECT, in this case, for the ease of identification.

1) SIGHTING of the object would cause HEART CONVULSIONs, OBVIOUS reactions from subject include BLUSHING, sudden HYPE, INSATIASABLE urge to ATTRACT the ATTENTION of the subject. In more extreme situation, UNCONTROLLABLE facial muscles SPASMs, resulting in RETARDED LOOKING smiles.

2) When SPEAKING to object, both over the web or in person, LONG response time or STAMMERING speech, this is PERFECTLY normal, such SYMPTOMS are known as THINKING LAG TIME, subject has to think befoer answering so as to PROVIDE a chance for the object to PROLONG the conversation as long as possble.

3) Subject feeling ULTRA SENSITIVE to the NAME of the object, HEARING it would cause the subject to TURN in the direction, as if it was her name being CALLED. This however, does not occur every time. To avoid AROUSING SUSPICION among FRIENDS and the PEOPLE around her, the subject might choose to REACT in a slightly SUBTLE way, for example, just DRIFTING her eyesight, or PERKING her ears to LISTEN to any possible conversation that the subject is having.

4) Subject is able to capture and remember any SCENT which the object has, this includes, PERFUME, AROMA, and naturally ODOUR. This is especially STIMULATING when the object doesn't have any DISTINCTIVE smell, the ONLY scent which the subject captures is th object's BODY ODOUR. and this is absolutely FASCINATING, seeing how HIGH the subject gets when coming in CLOSE proximity with the object.

Above are only few of the MILLIONS reactions which the subject experienced cause by the object, there are also many other signs such as INCESSANT RATTLING about the object to the people whom she hangs out with, NON-STOP occurance of the object's IMAGES through the mind of the subject (this take place even during meal times when the subject is QUEUING up for FOOD.) imagine the SERIOUSNESS of the SITUATION? my LIL sis is TOTALLY HEAD over HEELS, HEELS over HEAD, her HEELS give HEAD, for this guy.

For you LOVEY DOVEY, MUDDLE HEADED SWEETARDS out there, LOVE is 99% SUFFERING, and 1 FREAKIN' % HAPPINESS, for those who PERSIST to FALL in LOVE, ( FALL that's the CORRECT word, i bet it HURTS when you fall, and did ANYBODY realise that FALL is ACTUALLY before WINTER?) I salute you. ALL hail the many who have the courage to brave the FIRE and STOOD STRONG against the DAUNTING terror of THE RELATIONSHIP. And at last, shall we ALL join HANDS and PRAY for my LIL SIS who's about that CLOSE into BEING with the BOY of her dreams.

I love you SIS, I'll miss you...

There was a time, when love wasn't really much a friend of mine.
All that I ha,d was the KILLING kind.

Somewhere Only We Know

2006-07-26T02:24:00.000-07:00

OMG. There's a FILM that's COMING SOON that would be the next BIGGEST BLOCKBUSTER as SOON as it HITS the CINEMAS. its so BIG that it OCCUPIES 2 lines on my BLOG. like this.

THE LAKE HOUSE.

For the viewing pleasure of my BELOVED readers, LADIES and GENTLEMAN alike, I've PUBLISHED the TRAILER and on my BLOG. Enjoy.

I think it would be so GOOD that I'll be getting the DIRECTOR's cut, EDITOR's cut, PRODUCER's cut, and whatever kinda CUTs which you can get, be it INTENTIONALLY or UNINTENTIONALLY of the MOVIE when the DVD releases.

Talking about MOVIES, the latest movie I caught was the INFAMOUS, Pirates Of the Caribbean, the Dead Man's Chest. I'm still quite PUZZLED, could somebody kindly ENLIGHTEN me whether what the CHEST represents? the TREASURE CHEST? or the CHEST of Mr Teriyaki Takopachi? Besides, what's the BIG DEAL about John Deppy also known as Captain Jack Pigeon? and Orlando BLOOM, actually do ANYBODY have any idea how often does he BLOOM? like during which season? seriously, they ain't really HOT, as compared to KEANU REEVES. Awww...... NO! I'm not GAY. I'm just er... err... errr... CAPTIVATED by his CHARISMA, that's all, apart from his DEEP EYES, SEXY LIPS, CHISELLED BODY. Come to ME REEVY...

Okay, so GAY's the WORD huh? I bet you GUYS and GUYETTES have checked out several of the GAY blogs that's around. I'm a LIBERAL person, thus GAYS are accepted in MY world, and are regarded as every other EQUAL individual, except the FACT that GAYs HUGGING, KISSING, SMOOCHING, FRENCHING, and any other kind of ACTIONS along that line of INTIMACY simply puts ME off to the extend in which no WORDS CAN EVER DESCRIBE. its like QWERTYUIOPASDFGHJKLZXCVBNM. I mean DAMN, 2 hunks fondling each other. SHIT NO! I mean Lesbians are FINE to me. at least they indulge in their own CATERRIFIC, PUSSICILIOUS loving, and be deemed to be AFFECTIONATE actions of SISTER love. And I shan't ELABORATE more on this SENSITIVE topic, else my BLOG would be LABELLED as ANTI-GAY, which would most probbaly result in GOD-KNOWS-WHAT kinda CONSEQUENCES, perhaps little CUTE PINK parcels of ASS PLUGs, STRAP-ONs, STRAWBERRY flavoured LUBRICANT. Slurps

OKAY! you WANT it. CUM on ME, I mean COME get it. I'm just KIDDING. chill it MAN/WOMAN. whatever that makes you GAY.

Don't worry, be GAY.

PS: you NUMBSKULLS, GAY means HAPPY.

MATTERS of the HEART......

2006-07-20T10:24:00.000-07:00

For those who are thinking that I've finally posting an EMO entry, I'm afraid to say that you're RIGHT. NOT. this LITTLE sketch was ARTISTICALLY and COMELY done by a FRIEND of MINE, which TOTALLY had me in ASESTHETIC ADMIRATION. SPLENDID work of ART I must say, EXCEPTIONALLY BRILLIANT.

Talking about the HEART, Im here once again to ENLIGHTEN you BUNCH of plastic DOLLS and DOLLETTES that the HEART isn't the STRONGEST organ in the BODY. ITS not the PENIS, you OMINOUS MALE CHAUVINIST. it is NONE other than the TOOL of ORAL expression, the TONGUE.

This Cartoon is supposed to be considered NEUTRAL and INNOCENT in nature, HOWEVER, I have EXPLOITED the true INTENTIONS of the ARTIST, who I have concluded to have a PERSONAL AGENDA against GUYS. Okay so what if you GIRLS can get GUYS to do whatever that makes you HAPPY, by just ABUSING your BESTOWED assets? ITS out of RESPECT I tell you. Nothing more than that.

Okay Im not going to DEGRADE my post once AGAIN to illustrate on the UGLY side of the FEMININE couterparts of MAN. Back to where before I was RUDELY interrupted by YOU FEMALES, I was TALKING about the HEART. I remembered once I did this PERSONALITY test that CLAIMS to be able to DEPICT your PERSONA just by you answering a FEW of QUESIONS, and you think I even BELIEVE that?! I mean who WOULD? its DUMB and TOTALLY senseless for ONE to even COMTEMPLATE whether to WASTE their TIME taking the TEST. Besides, even IF he or SHE did it, its EVEN more NITWITTED for them to TRUST that its TRUE.
Anyway, the TEST results states that Im more of a FEELER.
This simply means I FEEL MORE than I THINK, most of the time. A follower of the HEART.
I guess this explains why my heart is OVERBURDENED by so much STUFFS while my BRAIN is basically experiencing ZERO output and HIBERNATING most of the TIME.
Eh wipe that GRIMACE away from that FACE. ALL of YOU. I'm not the only one around here that's having this PROBLEM,(in fact, its NOT a PROBLEM, its just a SITUATION.) at least that's what I FEEL. actually to come to THINK of it,( OH YEAH, I'm THINKING.) do ANY of you THINKING GEEKS know when are you USING your HEAD, or your HEART? for example, when you are CONFUSED?
the answer is HEART. do you ever THINK CONFUSED?
okay ENOUGH of all FEELING of the BRAIN and THINKING of the HEART SHIT. its GETTING me all feeling so MIXED up RIGHT INSIDE now, its LIKE my HEART and BRAIN have SWAPPED places. NOW do all of you UNDERSTAND how the THROBBING of the HEAD comes ABOUT?
Someone just INTRODUCED me a term, OXYMORON. its kinda COOL. what it MEANS?
basically, just putting two CONTRADICTORY words together. for example. she's PRETTY UGLY. or REALLY PLASTIC. then AGAIN some FEMINIST would NATURALLY come up with something like SMART MAN. sometimes I truly wonder what a BETTER place the WORLD would be if LADIES would be a LITTLE more SENSITIVE to the FEELINGS of their OTHER part. then AGAIN, if thats the CASE. the WORLD would come to a STAND STILL.
My female FRIENDS being SWEET, showing CONCERN, REPROCIATING our LOVE.
No offence BUT its REALLY that HARD to IMAGINE.

Buh BYES!
World PEACE, Sex PEACE. Spread the LOVE.

COURTESY campaign.

2006-07-17T00:05:00.000-07:00

Have you EVER had SOMEBODY who you DON'T REALLY KNOW, just ALL OUT OF A SUDDEN POP OUT, and JOIN into the ONGOING CONVERSATION that you and your friends are HAVING? hurhur!

AS if THINGS aren't BAD enough, the UNINVITED individual starts to BABBLE totally IRRELEVANT and NONSENSICAL stuff PROVOCATIVELY.

Let ME tell all of YOU, RUDE, OBNOXIOUS creatures, could you kindly ASK, " Hi/Hey/Yo/SUP? im fully AWARE that im IRRITATING, and ABSOLUTELY not WELCOMED at alll, but could you guys PLEASE have SYMPATHY on ME and allow me to PARTAKE in the little CONVERSATION that you guys are IN?"

Im HONESTLY not trying to be MEAN and UNFEELING, but you PEOPLE just gotta GET it into that THICK SKULL of yours, BEING POLITE is a VIRTUE. and the REASON why the WORLD is DWINDLING down into the ABYSS of EVIL and SIN is YOU PEOPLE.

Now that I've already addressed to the PRESSING issue of the society, its time to touch on even MORE PRESSING issues of the society. do you PEOPLE out there actually know that SINGAPORE is being ranked BOTTOM 10 of the WORLD's TOP COURTEOUS CITIES?
I mean this is some SERIOUS shit man. We are so GODDAMN small in the WORLD, that sometimes GEOGRAPHERS forget to give DOT us on MAPS. then they would PROBABLY go like "WHATEVER man! just GRAB a PEN and put a FULL STOP somewhere THERE." Yet here we are BEING so ARROGANT. Please KINDLY understand the FACT that CHINA's population can DROWN us ALL in their SALIVA, NEW ZEALAND's cows can KILL us ALL in a STAMPEDE, BRAZILIAN's can STONE us ALL to DEATH with their FOOTBALLS. its TIME to REFLECT people.

One of the ISSUEs raised was, SINGAPOREANS do not hold door for OTHERS. COME on, CANT you SEE what are the AUTOMATIC doors for? the ONLY DOOR that aint AUTOMATED and REQUIRE people to hold would be the TOILET CUBICLES door. I would jolly well hold the DOOR open for you while you're EASING yourself if you DON't mind. WHY on EARTH do you need someone to HOLD the DOOR open for YOU? why not the OTHER way round? IF you desperately require SOMEONE to hold your DOOR, go to MARITUS MANDARIN, approach uncle SINGH and ask for his ASSISTANCE.

As you all know, SINGAPORE is gonna host the IMF meeting this year, okay, maybe you all DON'T know a SINGLE SHIT about it. Whatever it is, BIG SHOTS, as in those in DIFFERENT shades of GOLD dressed in SUITS, would be arriving in SINGAPORE anytime soon. To top it off, OUR government has already came up with a CAMPAIGN, named the 4 million SMILES. OBJECTIVE, pretty simple and easy to understand, so STOP giving excuses such as "Eh I Kher Norch REeea Enguish, I Dunch Noooo whad euuu Toking about."
As effect from now ONWARDS, thou art to SMILE RETARDLY at any passing INDIVIDUAL, whom in thou's OWN perception, is DEEMED to be from whichever CONTINENT, COUNTRY, STATE, STREET, ROAD that are LOCATED beyond SINGAPORE's BORDERS.

I'm SO in LOVE with SINGAPORE. Together WE make a DIFFERENCE. My COUNTRY. My HOME.

Just SHOW a LITTLE kindness, LALALALalalalalalalal.............

FEW words of adWISE.

2006-07-14T01:59:00.001-07:00

Dear readers,

the following message was/is/will be/has already been PENNED by none other than the AUTHOR of this BLOG. duh! ( ok, that was from NEXA.)

" I rather be DISLIKED for what I am, than be LIKED for what I am not. "

short and SWEET. sweet simply because it was by ME. thats one thing for all you, PLASTICS, to PONDER over. the SOCIETY is TEEMING with so many of you people, to the extent which the WAX you all produced could fuel a candle for GOD KNOWS HOW LONG.
DAMN! if I were the goddamn GOVERNMENT, on seeing that the country's PLASTIC industry is OVERSATURATED, I'll for SURE DUMP the WHOLE damn lot of you MANNEQUINS into the some other countries' market.
I'm sorry once again KIDS, for using SUCH atrocious and ABUSIVE language. BUT doesn't it just PISSES you off when you see people with all that FAKE expressions, STOP it already. OFF to the recycle plants. MORE plastic BAGS, I SAY! and condoms too! WAIT a minute! ain't condoms made of RUBBER?! whatever, it DOESN'T matter, just WASTE em' ALL!

Okay, enough of the P word. for now.
is " EMO " the IN thing now? i mean what's up with all that " LIFE sucks, im gonna kill myself with a toothbrush." "i see no meaning in living ANYMORE, i'll jump off my BED." "everybody hates me, i'll strangle myself with my HANDPHONE." OH PLEASE!
now do you guys understand why the world's turning into BARBIE's WORLD? everybody's PRETENDING to be SOMETHING they are NOT, just to FIT IN.

im cutting MYSELF because... Erm... erm... erm... erm... MORE erms... erm... cause my friend's friend's friend's friend's friend's friend's friend's cut herself too. I used HERself. Girls, I'm not trying to be SEXIST here, honest. ITS just that don't think its COOL to cut yourself and say that the PAIN brings PLEASURE. COME ON! Im sure there are other TOYS, i mean THINGS out there that provides PLEASURE too. Okay, IF you're REALLY into PAIN fetish, get yourself a SM partner. For those who aren't sure of the term SM, its not time to know yet. ALL that sure BEATS trying to CUT yourself, at least you don't go " ARGHHH...! now where the HELL is the FIRST AID kit..."
Okay for those ignorant DUMBSKULLS WHO still insist on INFLICTING totally unnecessary PAIN on themselves, here's a PIECE of ADVICE. LISTEN up real GOOD. get SOMETHING even BIGGER. why settle for a TWEENY WEENY penknife? how about a CHOPPER? MACHETE? SAW?
Im sure it provides MORE kick and HYPE for you SICK, TWISTED minds out there. AMPUTATE the entire LIMB. package it with FOOD WRAP. exchange it with your FRIENDS. COLLECT em ALL.
IF its good, I might even SET UP a COMPANY, "BERT'S BOD PARTS". pretty neat huh?
i even thought of the advertisement.
SOLD in all DEPARTMENTAL stores. Joints and Accessories each sold separately. Batteries are not INCLUDED.

CIAO, PERVERSED WORLD, ROT ON MAN!
whatever.

HOT STUFF...

2006-07-03T08:04:00.000-07:00

WASSUP Pppppppeople!?

IMmmmmmm... BACK for more INTENSE, HEART-THUMPING, HOT blogging action!!

OK. seriously. HOW many of you actually MISSED me? and decided to kinda like COME back for MORE?

For those who actually bothered, this POST is dedicated to YOU. just YOU.

For the start, allow me to REMIND that August and September is COMING. even now as I speak, or should i say type, they are CLOSING in on us. Brace yourself as the inevitable is unaviodable.
Im not so LAME, LAMB, LAMP, whatsoever. The reason Im bringing this ISSUE up is BECAUSE...
NO! not NATIONAL DAY! im not the kind of person that's really into PATRIOTISM, nation LOVE, WORLD PEACE, cleaner TOILETS. Though the fireworks are AWESOME, they had to be, just IMAGINE the amount of TAX PAYERS' ( now our parents, in the future US.) money they are SQUANDERING just for that few MINUTES of WOO's and AHH's. Besides, its always been the same thing for as long as I can remember. Try this. let's guess what's gonna be the FINALE for this year's NDP. Well, since I'm at it, i might as well suggest a thing or two, something to spice up the NDP so things arent that PREDICTABLE.
If the government was spend millions on some fanciful sparks and flashes, might as well, listen up closely PEOPLE, arrange for that amount of money to be rolled up in PILES of $50s, then LAUNCH them into the air for the SINGAPOREANS, for SURE that will SPICE things up for this year's NDP.

Okay then, keeping my suggestion in MIND, i shall continue.
AUGUST and SEPTEMBER are SUPPOSEDLY SUMMER time for Singapore. its not as if SINGAPORE experiences the four seasons, but its just like the SUMMER of all SUMMERS.
at the rate that the WORLD's warming up, (either for ANN's class or just own TRAINING. LOL. sorry, but i just cant help it.), soon we'll have the HOTTEST summer in HOT SUMMERS' history.This spells O-P-P-O-R-T-U-N-I-T-Y for people like YOU out there with EXHIBITIONIST nature, OR those who possesses VOYEUR tendencies.

Since im on it, LADIES or GIRLS, just for your INFORMATION, guys aint the only one with VOYEUR tendencies, DO NOT tell me YOU GIRLS dont OGLE at CUTE guys, and giggle to yourself. so STOP it with those SEXIST remarks, " GIRLS rules, BOYS drools." " BOYS are STUPID, let's THROW rocks at THEM." and STOP wearing TOPS which carrys SEXIST messages AGAINST guys, " MENSUCKS." hurhur.YOUKNOWWHO.
OKOK, i admit, sometimes we guys just say the DARNEST things, crack the CHEESIEST jokes, and OCCASIONALLY, do the DUMBEST things. BUT aint because of THESE, you GIRLS find US cute? COME ON, confess OREADY! who's ALWAYS the one who Laughed Out Loud when I say STUPID, NONSENSICAL RUBBISH? IMAGINE defenders LOOKING for their LOST contact lens during a CORNER KICK. LOL

but seriously, do SOCCER players really wear glasses, of many of you LADIES would ask, as much as I know, NO. but Im not very sure about English players though, as such BECK HAM, and LAMPA RD. Notice why they ALWAYS misses GOALS? it must be their FAILING eyesight. BECK HAM has this SERIOUS case of ASTIGMATISM, in which he sees not ONE, but SEVERAL IMAGES of the GOAL POSTS from far, thus he never able to connect with any of his penalty kicks, WHEREAS for LAMPA RD, his is MYOPIA, like what many of us is familiar with, exactly, SHORT-SIGHTEDNESS. just take a look at the replays of the BILLIONS of shots TAKEN by HIM during the infamous WORLD CUP.

so much for this entry. hope YOU guys and GIRLS had FUN reading. See ya SOON.

PEACE OUT.

THIS will go into the BOOKS of HISTORY...

2006-06-29T23:34:00.000-07:00

HEY!
(Eeeeeeeeee, again!)

HARLO! welcome PEOPLE to my first ever BLOG.
oh WAIT! maybe it's just YOU...
cause I wasn't expecting a crowd you know?

for you who have FORTUNATELY or UNFORTUNATELY STUMBLED across MY BLOG,
im SORRY. i SURELY am.
but SINCE you're here. MIGHT as well just stay and hear, not literally, but READ what I've to say in my FIRST EVER BLOG in HISTORY.
who knows? if you like it, You can ALWAYS come back for MORE. LOL.
Besides, I'm CERTAIN that your MUM and DAD would rather You reading this, as compared to watching STUFF that has a more sitmulating effect, which would inevitably cause Your TOFU up there to secrete JUICE, BIOMEDICALLY KNOWN as ANDRENALINE. too much of that stuff can spell T-R-O-U-B-L-E. stuff liddat causes REACTIONS that might be quite a hassle if not concealed properly or not ATTENDED to. (MINORS are not allowed to view the above materials, if you have please consult a MAJOR.) for MORE explicit ADVICE, feel free to call 1800-DOC-LOVABERT.

let's get down to BUSINESS.
like every SINGLE blog INTRODUCTION.
i wanna first CLARIFY that this a SIMPLE blog of an AVERAGE boy, who's just a LIL CONFUSED at times.
so DO NOT, I emphasize DO NOT, expect things that are considered to be
1) Violent
2) Sexual
3) Depressing
4) Emotional
in nature, this is AGAINST my personal AGENDA. go look up the DICTIONARY. if you dun understand what that means. NO! im not going to be so KIND as to provide explanation of every BABELICIOUS word that I use. face it you IMBECILE. if you cant UNDERSTAND the words that are C-O-M-I-N-G out of my mouth. BRUSH up on your ENGLISH. so much for trying to be NICE to my ONE and ONLY reader. ( notice I used IMBECILE singular, not IMBECILES plural.)

One more thing, if at any point of time, you find MY BLOG totally NONSENSICAL, and CRAPPY. you are OBLIGED to click on the TINY RED CROSS at the TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER of the window. ( and YOU BETTER DUN COME BACK ANYMORE! INGRATES!) Pls REFRAIN from leaving NEGATIVE comments, and for you who KNOW me, keep THOSE SARCASTIC and DISGUSTING opinions to yourself. you know who IM talking about. the more PRONE ones, ( BERT! you know ARH... blah blah blah...) sounds damn familliar RIGHT?

As you all know, im a COMPLETE IDIOT when it comes to BLOGGING, (its not as if im nt a REATRD to anything else but whatever.) IM still trying to get a HANG on FURNISHING my BLOG. I MEAN try and picture this, 1 guy with MILLIONS of ALPHABETS, SYMBOLS, NUMBERS, AND SYMBOLS, ALPHABETS AND NUMBERS. somehow or rather, a BLACK background with THREE rectangles, is represented by A FAT BULK OF SHIT that TOTALLY makes no F*CKING sense!
OH YA! another thing, when I first SAID, " I might wanna startablog." Replies are of SUCH," AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
HAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
HAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.......
well the reply kinda trailed off somewhere, dint really end, at least I stay that LONG for it to END.
I guess it's PRETTY ENCOURAGING. so GLAD that I've friends like that, who have been with me all THESE WHILE. (explains my shrinking self-confidence.)

Ok. i ADMIT I'm still pretty excited about having a BLOG, and to many of you that WERE expecting some lame shit about how many times I FARTED and BURPED, GALLONS I PEED, WEIGHT of MY EXCRETION. im SO NOT SORRY to disappoint. but SERIOUSLY. you GIRLS and GAYS wont be expecting to see MY EVERYDAY LIFE EVENTS HERE, so NO USE trying to hang around to find SOMETHING about ME to BITCH ABOUT. AHAHAHA...

WELL, that should do it for my first post, hope You liked it. Drop a COMMENT, or just TAG. whatever that makes you HAPPY. stay TUNED.

2006-06-29T18:08:00.000-07:00

test test, 1, 2 & 3!